"We were so good together,
why didn't we just weather the storm?.."
No, it isn't an awesome shit kinda ass. It's a bad ass day. Really bad ass day. I couldn't take it anymore, so I'm throwing all my rantings in this blog post. It's not like anyone's gonna read it anyway, so what the heck. Just for releasing what I should be releasing all this while. I've been stressing out a lot lately, in things i shouldn't be stressing out on. hmmph, and if that person is actually reading this blog of mine, i'm sure you're not that dumb right? ...
Everyone around me is so fake. As fake as they can actually be. They aren't even worth being Made in China, I tell you. Even plastics can be my best friend. They can back stab you like nobody's business, they can even make you the gossip of the year. As much as i like mentioning names, your names aren't even worth having a spot in my blog. (: Be honest yaw, don't talk behind my back, you coward. Have a problem with me, talk to my face. Kay? I feel like i'm the biggest loser among you guys. Thank you for making me feel that way, there's nothing that makes me feel better than that. We offered our help and you didn't want it. So if you get mad, find the right person to throw it all out to. Don't let it out on us kay, it's so not cool. You might have the looks, have that p-brain of yours, have that shit-ass body, but you're ain't better than me. Face's kick-ass but attitude like shit. You're just like an ant that's being stepped all over without even knowing. Hah, bet you didn't know that people actually talks about you. Like, me.
...Anyway, enough of those craps. Why should I even conclude you in my problems? Hmmph.
Lets talk about today.
I still don't know why I get so sensitive at times. I was just so stress before that, knowing that my friends aren't actually my friends and that my friend had to remind me of him. As if my stress level isn't high enough. Now that he's totally out of my life, even though a little part of me still tells me that we have a chance, but you've been gone so long because I claimed our love was wrong. I miss you a lot, though i know it's wrong to. Because you're the only one who can let me forget all my problems just like that. When I have some rubbish to tell you, you'll always be patient with me and tolerate my behavior. And I loved you for that. I'm lonely now, thinking that the only thing that can make me less mad and stressful is my blog. ): *Lame, right? I know..* I miss you very much, please know that.
I wonder, what comes and stay, but doesn't go?
So mainly today's story was based during today's class. Here was how it went.
...Scene 1
* : Ehhh, why your hair so messy ah??! Please tie it properly into the hat lah, look like your husband just died only. Apalah!
...Scene 2
* : *looking around people's shoes and saw mine* Please wear your safety shoes next time ah. Why never wear your safety shoes??!
Me : Sorry, my leg still hurts...
* : Then when something happen to you later on, your parents will come to me. So ah, you better wear your safety shoes next time.
Me : *mumbling*
* : Why, you not happy ah? *everyone stares at me*
It's kinda hurtful though what * said. I really terasa lorh. I felt so insulted and i felt like i lost a part of my dignity. I wonder why all this type of * keep doing this to me. Is it just me or them? I think it's me though. Hmmph. After that hoo-haa, from the moment I left the place, I automatically just broke down. Because, * added my stress and I just couldn't take it anymore. I tried to held it in, but obviously it was a fail thing. And when * said to me, it reminded me of my him. Like what I told you earlier on, I have nobody to talk to and that made me burst also. I'm sorry guys, didn't mean it. I'm sorry * , didn't mean to give you that look either. It was rude, but I was just tired plus having a bad sore throat. I know, it's gonna effect my marks though. Hmmph, i'm sure you're rational enough to even do that.
I felt better after that anyway. Thank you darling, for being there for me. <3>
I had a laugh of my lifetime in the bus where you almost fell from the chair while sleeping. HAHA. It still makes me laugh though :p Thank you!
....Yes, i had my moments today.
Till next time.
Sorry if this post is kinda bullshit, it's just to make me feel better. (:
One more thing,
"Yeah, you might be prettier than me, and have more friends than me. And you might hang out with hotter guys than me, and get fucked up more than me. Have more clothes and money than me, and not give a fuck about school, unlike me. You might be carefree, unlike me. But one day, you're going to wish you stayed true to who you were, like me. Because you'll have nothing, except memories of fake ass friends who you don't even talk to anymore. So don't talk shit about me or my lifestyle, because one day, you're going to wish it was yours."
It's so true. (:
