ashley's.

a little update

2010-11-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

in case you didn't know, i'm still alive. and i have another 24 days more. ;) bring it on babeeeyyhhhh

tententen

2010-10-10T14:11:00.006+08:00

first of all, happy tententen.

it's just another ordinary day for me.

nothing to shout

about. (:

anyway getting to the point

tomorrow i'm starting my internship in Nikko.

one week of holiday is gone, and i'll definitely miss DH 35 :(

i'll miss the college madness and of course, Wong Kok and Starbucks

pffffttttt and you know what Baskin Robbins is already open in college

ssshheeeeessshhh

and i'm gonna definitely miss my unproductive week.

lol, all i did was sleep. hey, shattap kay :p

and went to the zoo, and movies.

yeaaaap, buhbyeee week (:

and do visit me in Hotel Nikko. heee

i have nothing to talk about actually.

and this would be my last post for the week.

definitely will update this blog if i have a chance.

take care, loves. <3

good day, i say good day.

Color

2010-10-08T13:35:00.001+08:00

why can't i color my texts?

issssshhhhhhh so geram weyyhhh

watafak is wrong with blogspot :S

bored, fat and adam lambert.

2010-10-08T00:47:00.004+08:00

"when you smile,

the whole world stops and stares for awhile..."

weeeeeeyyyyyyyh

i'm getting bored

weeeyyyyyyyyyyhh

i'm getting fatter

weeeeyyyyyyyyyyyhhhh

why can't adam lambert come to hotel nikko, instead of hilton?

weyyyyyyyyyyyyyhhh

why can't paramore tooooooo??!!!

weeeeyyyyyyhhhhh

i need to go shopping this weekend. SALES FTW!

weeeyyyyyyyyhhh

*watafak. kayy i'm so annoying (:

-baithxk

EWWW

2010-10-05T21:57:00.005+08:00

a post in the night.

sorry for 2 posts in one day.

i'm totally bored kay, i've got nothing to do

nowhere to go.

just sleeping, is already my passion

just for this week i promise <3

i'm here to talk about money and love.

most probably a boring post.

but i just wanted to write something that's meaningful

hahaha after reading my last few posts.

i "ewww-ed" to myself.

anyway, here goes.

money ;

hey. i was born in an average family, i couldn't ask for more. who wouldn't want more money lah? i was born with a blanket covered over me. and that blanket lasted me till 15 or 16, till my mom decided to throw it away for my own good. like what can a blanket do to my life? sheeesh. i got so mad though. when i was in school, people used to say. "Oh you rich kid!" Well, couldn't blame them. I had a few 10 bucks sheets in my purse, and i was like 13? But no, i'm no rich kid okay. I'm just lucky to have parents like mine. They are awesome, and they just want what's best for me. I'm in college now. It ain't working that good, till I know I had trouble controlling my expenditure. I spent 100 bucks in 2 days. Like watafak. I'm pretty sure, for rich kids it wouldn't be a problem. But due to my parents' pay couldn't waste that much on a daughter like me. Well my dad doesn't really work work and have like about a thousand per month. Yea, so we just depend on my mom a lot. LIKE A LOT. College, i know i owe a lot of money to my close friends, LOL. Sorry babes, will return you as fast as possible <3>

Conclusion : Please do not just throw your money around. Heck, if i'm rich i would. But seriously, it's very immoral to do something like that. At least, throw to someone who needs it more.

love ;

what a feeling. love is beautiful once you actually understand what love really is. It's no puppy love, like how my parents always say. "Your first love, is always puppy love." Well, no not to me. Love comes in various ways and sometimes, it could be a weird thing you know? When you're in love, it's amazing.....for the first few months. Hell after that. Why? Because you would only know a person after a few months of being close to each other. You'll often fight, even with the smallest things ever you could dig up. Which in result, you'll get lotsa silent treatment from each other, and so on. Also, love is when you get to call each other pet names. Holy, I've remembered that I've got called from weird pet names. Gossshh. HAHAH sorry, its p and c. but, I wouldn't forget it, NEVER. (: and after pet names, comes your first touch. Hugs/kisses/holding hands, etc. etc. It's just so clear in my head now, the memories of us. But nonetheless, it's past tense. And at some point everyone have to let go and move on because everything happens for a reason.

Love is an amazing feeling once you get a hang of it.

Though, i'm no love expert. I've experienced it, and learnt from mistakes. I take them as experience and I hope lovers do not assume. Trust me, it will just lead to tears. So, never assume and never hope for more. Just go with the flow. (:

Conclusion ; You can't find perfect love, but you can sure find an imperfect perfect love <3

Be happy with your life yo.

You wouldn't know that someone might just be secretly jealous of it. ;)

Bows and Flowers?

2010-10-05T14:55:00.005+08:00

"every time i close my eyes,

i see my name in shining lights.."

oh hello thereeeeee!!!!!!!

ok gotta stop this.

gotta stop typing in the middle, like a homo.

gotta stop the typos. not cool yo.

*ooohhh it rhymes. (:

Oh. shitzz my tummy is aching when i'm just about to type. for gawd sakes. ugggggghhhh.

actually, i rather type in the middle like a homo. due to lots of research and experiment...cheh, lol jk. 99.9% won't read passages like this, in other words essay. because it bores the hell out of you, by the time you reach the second line, kkayy FACEBOOK TIME! or maybe, just fall asleep while reading. heh. and what happens to the 0.1%????!!!!

lol, you probably won't even end up in my blog.

kay. anyway.

better like this horr?

at least it's short and not as long as the top paragraph one.

it just goes on and on and on and on and on and..stop.

first and foremost.

I HATE WAKING UP EARLY FOR NOTHING.

watafak, i'm sure nobody likes it.

seriously.

it all began when my mom suggested

we go to Korea for my 2 weeks break before Term 4.

that made me a happy woman.

then came in the thought of .... passports.

had to renew them.

and you know what.

just because i'm not 18 yet i need my birth cert.

oh fak shitz.

i'm 18 laaaa. i'm still gonna be 18 in december.

it's not like my birthday will change to some other date.

and i'm 17.5 yo.

and when you round it off, its blardy 18!

don't know your maths??!

ugh. k not gonna let it ruin my mood.

because...i've gotta wake up early again tomorrow.

thank you so much.

it might not be a big deal to you.

but i'm sleeping k and i only i have one week.

i was in the middle of my dreams.

would you like it if i wake you up from your dreams??

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

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finally.

watched glee yesterday.

awesome shitzz yo, <3>

so sweet of her to sing to her bf.

i wouldn't even think about singing to mine. heh :p

if only i have one..hmmpphh

do you know it sucks having an aunt that couldn't stop talking?

that is so shameless???!!!

how could she even use my deodorant??!!

so what, if it was a free sample.

you could have at least asked me first u know.

plus it's a private stuff and a big NONO.

annnnnnnnnnd.

who actually lies down on your parents' bed except your parents??!!!

sometimes me, but i'm their daughter.

i'm an exception yo.

no disrespect at all. but it disgusts me.

heh, i'm sorry for being rude, but it's not nice when this happens.

would you want people to touch your stuffs??!!

sorry. i love you, aunty <33

moving on..

did i tell you that i love to watching cooking/food channels?

anything to do with food in the tv, i'm the first in the middle!

especially, Surreal Gourmet and License to Grill.

and and and and, Ultimate Cake Off. and and and and and

CAKE BOSS!

watafsajafasknjad.

i wanna be in their programme, hire me!!!!!!???

...........kay that wasn't me yo.

Surreal Gourmet is interesting.

He cooks in his "toastbox-van". cute, me like.

and his recipes are really easy to make.

like like going to pee.

no seriously, really easy. *not comparing to pee

but i love the way he cooks

and somehow his methods relates to our cooking in college.

hahahah why am i so dumb? isn't cooking standard???!!

...............

yeaaa but seriously,

he's the reason i remembered what blanching was,

and the reason my kitchen assessment was like flying a kite.

eh? flying a kite is...hard, no?!

but yeap.

somehow there's something in him that makes me relate to college

and makes me remember clearly about the cooking and all.

maybe his hair?? hahahaha. pffftttt.

License to Grill?

awesome chef weyyh.

i feel like licking the tv whenever i see him grill those meat.

sheeeeessssshhhhh stop grilling would yeaaaahhh???!!!

Ultimate Cake Off and Cake Boss.

totally related, duuhhhh cakes.

but their cakes are, uhhhh-amazingggg!

someday kay, someday i would be like them.

decorating cakes and be in Oprah Winfrey Show.

uhhuh...dreams, i tell you. they ruin my hopes. :/

it's true when they say that,

while they decorate the cakes,

it's like they're totally concentrated in their work.

so am I!!! see potential #1.

and also, they feel like they're not in reality for a second.

so am I!!! see, potential #2!

besides that, they pay attention to details.

so am i!!! see, potential #3!!!

sigh.

lets see if my potentials are good enough.

kay. signing off for today.

g'daaayy, g'day. (:

:* xoxo.

Bows and Flowers?

i have a weird fetish towards them

i like them on clothes, shoes, bags and whatever, you name it.

ooohh and you know what?

my birthday is in 2 months time.

i like surprises and bows and flowers. heheheeheh

time to shattup.

Zoo and Charlie

2010-10-04T20:35:00.004+08:00

"You're the only exception..."

i haven't been a good girl recently.

i go out everyday.

i spent 100 bucks in 2 days.

i eat like a pig.

tsk tsk tsk.

anyway.

met up with the natasha at wangsa maju.

we were on our "Zoo Date" today.

Reached the place around 10.

and got out from there at 12.

yep. 2 hours, was tiring kay.

we walked like the whole zoo and there's apparently nothing much

the only animals i was hyped about was,

the otters. and the monkeys.

due to some stinky-awful memories with them.

lol jk.

had to do "charity work" for moral.

ehem ehem yeaaa.

and my duty was to take care of the otters.

somehow monkeys? hmm not so sure.

maybe, they are related to me? :O

agreed to proceed to wangsa walk mall for movie.

wtfzomgbbqlol.

CHARLIE ST. CLOUD.

Zac Efron?

WOW.

he's a grown up boy now, so matured.

i'm proud of you son...uhuh.

anyway, he's too adorable laa.

he's hot weyyyhhh.

yea yea i know you guys would be thinking.

"watafak?!"

"who the cowshithole is that?!!"

"why the fak him??!!"

"GAY-FAGGOT!!!"

FAK SHIT.

Shut the hell up.

jealousy is not a way to solve a problem.

and who cares if he was from High School Musical?

you watched it too.

because you need to watch it, to keep yourself updated.

get it? so get a life, gayfag.

okthankyouverymuch.

got home at 5 something.

heheh i've only got a week to do all this shitzz kay

and there goes my freedom till Christmas.

off to KOREA! <3<3

was bored k.

had to wait at the cinema for 2 hours lol

my toes are dry due to too much of walking with the wedges.

don't ask.

elianto just helps a lot sometimes.

heh.

i know i know what is this!!!!!!

gay.

stupid glee britanny/britney episode can't load fast is it???!!!

uggghghhhgsgjnkjamffasfasfn

-.-

ngom ngom

2010-10-03T23:16:00.004+08:00

"I'm such a fool..."

That girl - David Choi.

wazzzzzzuuuuppp hommies.

gawd,

i'm in love with glee.

i'm in love with aj rafael.

i'm in love with tyler ward.

i'm' in love with ... EHEM. (:

moving on.

i would wanna show you guys this video.

i actually posted it up in facebook some time ago.

and thinking it would be a hit if i posted it up here.

whaaaaaaat??! HIT?

psssfffttttt.

nevermind that.

it's a commercial. a cute commercial of panda and cheese.

i'm sure if you guys Youtube a lot like me...uhuh.

you guys would come across this video. it's the shit.

*beware of panda's. (:

and.

besides that.

there's this video about this lady.

she's some what a make up guru.

and she reminds me of That's So Raven.

she's really funny.....though a little weird

*i adore her energetic-ness. hahah

if you can't watch through this bodoh blog.

here are the links.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sSG0ube0wU&feature=topvideos

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y4SO9sYx3cs

go. hurry.

back to business.

i slept the whole day today.

and it feels damn good.

seriously.

like i haven't been sleeping in years

and i just got up from comma.

cheh. choi. touchwood.

i mean like, seriously.

now i know how it feels.

when i'm sleeping, i can't feel reality.

and when i wake up, the reality slaps me in the face.

shit.

that feeling sucks balls.

i should be living my life for this one week.

i've only got one week of holiday till i'm off to work.

i'm starting to miss my college friends, and

of course my school friends. hellll. my school friends even more!

but. haven't been seeing them in awhile. so yea

but i miss my college friends too ):

some of them are starting work tomorrow.

to those, good luck. you know who you are ;)

take care of yourselves, would like to see you in term 4 <3

and to those starting on the oct 11th, like muaaa.

we should have breakfast, lunch, teatime, dinner, supper or whatever.

don't care.

i'm talking about those who are in KL laaa.

those that's outstation, good luck. and stay safe.

anyway.

good luck to me.

i have a feeling, a slight tinge that internship is not fun at all.

AT ALL.

October?

2010-10-01T19:13:00.003+08:00

"You've changed my whole life,

don't know what you're doing to me with your love.."

Superhuman - Chris Brown.

Hello peeeeople.

I'm back after term 3. and watafak? It's freaking OVER already!

I just sat my finals this morning, which is the last paper.

Not hard, not easy.

Couldn't figure out some, but could do some.

Heh, hope I wouldn't fail. :/

Sick of talking about exams,

and sick that i spend half of my life sitting for exams.

you call that life?

Finally, everything is over,

Term 3 is over, finals is over,

mostly, college is OVER for good.

But still, I feel like there's something missing.

I'm not as happy as when my spm ended,

I'm not as happy as my previous terms' exams ended,

but I'm feeling rather neutral.

Thought I did be happy. eh, no.

SUPER DUPER HAPPY.

but no, maybe because i'm starting internship next two weeks

and Term 4 in 3 months.

FAK.

this is going too fast wey.

chillax man.

i need some time for myself to realize all these things.

i need time.

i wanna live like how a teenager is supposed to live,

i wanna go through my teens with laughters and cries,

i wanna feel like i'm 17 and 18 in between.

i don't want the numbers to keep adding, and without knowing,

i'm gonna hit my 20's. shit.

please be easy on me, time.

lately, there's a lot that's been going on in college and off-college.

actually, i don't really wanna cover the part in college, so yea.

off-college, well. I'm still coping with life.

still coping with your absence, your love.

and apparently just so you know, i'm doing fine.

though i know when i'm sick or ill i'll think of you.

the moment when i need you the most.

yeah, you.

you came back to me with a text message?!

like watafak?!

come on you can do better than that.

but i don't wanna waste your time, theres no future in us. i don't see it

though once there was.

i'm sorry, hr. you're amazing.

meeting you was the greatest thing God ever arranged for me.

you're likeable, lovable, nice, and a sweet guy.

i'm sure you can find someone better than me.

someone worth your love more.

- gosh. enough of those emo shit.

done of talking about love.

and btw, i hate the word EMO. never use that on me.

not ELMO, but EMO kayy. ;p

anyway.

i'm gonna be working in 2 weeks time.

hopefully i'll have time to blog and tumblr :D

i promised i would blog after term 3, and here you go!

hahaha.

yeaaa though no one reads it, the more better it is.

it's my public diary.

like it or not, digest it.

see you later beatches.

and maybe the LAST EMO picture/quote everrrrrr.

naaaahhh. i like emo pictures xp!

take care.

its the holidays.

2010-09-11T23:02:00.005+08:00

Hello awesome people out there.

I'm back for the raya holidays. (:

There's been a lot going on nowadays. I'm currently not feeling well, kinda sick. Sucks having horsey voice and continuous flu. Sighhh. Will be back in college in a week. Have lots of studies and assignments to finish off. Not liking my term 3 at all. Term 3 has also been in a fast-forward mode. Everything is just super fast, time really waits for nobody. ):

Anyway, i won't be celebrating Christmas in Malaysia this year. Will be up in the air. (: Btw i've just gone for an interview two days ago in Hotel Nikko for my internship. Hopefully, I'll get it. I really do wanna work there even though my first choice was Hilton. WAS. So, Nikko, don't fail me now. ):

It's been a month since we ever talked, smsed or even seen each other. I miss you but I don't miss you at the same time. Get it? I miss you when I only need you around me, when I'm alone, when I'm travelling home in the train alone and I start thinking of you. But I also don't miss you when I'm surrounded with my friends, they make me happy and they are the reason I actually don't miss you. They've all I got now, and they make me be myself. As much as I want to talk and see you, I don't at the same time. See, i don't even know what are we now. I mean, seriously, what are we now? I didn't ignore you, and i didn't leave it hanging. I just wanted time, and you never got back to me. I'm sorry that whenever you hear my name it disgusts you, I'm sorry that we couldn't be like last time. I'm moving on..What about you?

Finally, got glasses! (;

Nerdy is <3>

i had my moments today.

2010-08-10T18:35:00.009+08:00

"We were so good together,

why didn't we just weather the storm?.."

Today was a shit-ass day.

No, it isn't an awesome shit kinda ass. It's a bad ass day. Really bad ass day. I couldn't take it anymore, so I'm throwing all my rantings in this blog post. It's not like anyone's gonna read it anyway, so what the heck. Just for releasing what I should be releasing all this while. I've been stressing out a lot lately, in things i shouldn't be stressing out on. hmmph, and if that person is actually reading this blog of mine, i'm sure you're not that dumb right? ...

Everyone around me is so fake. As fake as they can actually be. They aren't even worth being Made in China, I tell you. Even plastics can be my best friend. They can back stab you like nobody's business, they can even make you the gossip of the year. As much as i like mentioning names, your names aren't even worth having a spot in my blog. (: Be honest yaw, don't talk behind my back, you coward. Have a problem with me, talk to my face. Kay? I feel like i'm the biggest loser among you guys. Thank you for making me feel that way, there's nothing that makes me feel better than that. We offered our help and you didn't want it. So if you get mad, find the right person to throw it all out to. Don't let it out on us kay, it's so not cool. You might have the looks, have that p-brain of yours, have that shit-ass body, but you're ain't better than me. Face's kick-ass but attitude like shit. You're just like an ant that's being stepped all over without even knowing. Hah, bet you didn't know that people actually talks about you. Like, me.

...Anyway, enough of those craps. Why should I even conclude you in my problems? Hmmph.

Lets talk about today.

I still don't know why I get so sensitive at times. I was just so stress before that, knowing that my friends aren't actually my friends and that my friend had to remind me of him. As if my stress level isn't high enough. Now that he's totally out of my life, even though a little part of me still tells me that we have a chance, but you've been gone so long because I claimed our love was wrong. I miss you a lot, though i know it's wrong to. Because you're the only one who can let me forget all my problems just like that. When I have some rubbish to tell you, you'll always be patient with me and tolerate my behavior. And I loved you for that. I'm lonely now, thinking that the only thing that can make me less mad and stressful is my blog. ): *Lame, right? I know..* I miss you very much, please know that.

I wonder, what comes and stay, but doesn't go?

So mainly today's story was based during today's class. Here was how it went.

...Scene 1

* : Ehhh, why your hair so messy ah??! Please tie it properly into the hat lah, look like your husband just died only. Apalah!

...Scene 2

* : *looking around people's shoes and saw mine* Please wear your safety shoes next time ah. Why never wear your safety shoes??!

Me : Sorry, my leg still hurts...

* : Then when something happen to you later on, your parents will come to me. So ah, you better wear your safety shoes next time.

Me : *mumbling*

* : Why, you not happy ah? *everyone stares at me*

It's kinda hurtful though what * said. I really terasa lorh. I felt so insulted and i felt like i lost a part of my dignity. I wonder why all this type of * keep doing this to me. Is it just me or them? I think it's me though. Hmmph. After that hoo-haa, from the moment I left the place, I automatically just broke down. Because, * added my stress and I just couldn't take it anymore. I tried to held it in, but obviously it was a fail thing. And when * said to me, it reminded me of my him. Like what I told you earlier on, I have nobody to talk to and that made me burst also. I'm sorry guys, didn't mean it. I'm sorry * , didn't mean to give you that look either. It was rude, but I was just tired plus having a bad sore throat. I know, it's gonna effect my marks though. Hmmph, i'm sure you're rational enough to even do that.

I felt better after that anyway. Thank you darling, for being there for me. <3>

I had a laugh of my lifetime in the bus where you almost fell from the chair while sleeping. HAHA. It still makes me laugh though :p Thank you!

....Yes, i had my moments today.

Till next time.

Sorry if this post is kinda bullshit, it's just to make me feel better. (:

One more thing,

"Yeah, you might be prettier than me, and have more friends than me. And you might hang out with hotter guys than me, and get fucked up more than me. Have more clothes and money than me, and not give a fuck about school, unlike me. You might be carefree, unlike me. But one day, you're going to wish you stayed true to who you were, like me. Because you'll have nothing, except memories of fake ass friends who you don't even talk to anymore. So don't talk shit about me or my lifestyle, because one day, you're going to wish it was yours."

It's so true. (:

Last and Final

2010-07-18T15:59:00.003+08:00

"Can't read my,

Can't read my,

No, he can't read my poker face..."

Yup. Can't wait for tomorrow. Cant wait. PFFT. I really don't know why I'm just taking this so seriously, I mean this "going-back-to-college" thing. I'm sorry if it annoys the heck out of you, but I'm a little worried of what's in Term 3. I didn't had a great time in Term 1, nor Term 2. It's been a very rough time getting along, fitting in. I guess you know what i mean right? It's not like in school, where you enter the class on the first day, sit your ass down in class, and *poof* you have a friend next to you. *yeaaahh that's me. (: You don't need to make an effort to fit in, because you know you have a friend next to you. College was different i guess, not to say that I dislike my group mates, or college mates, it's just different you know? It's never me, when I'm with them. Don't get me wrong, I'm still me. It's just that it's never the same with my school friends yaw. And I find lotsa weird people in college, haha. I'm weird i know, but there are weird-er ones. Hahah. Oh boy can I tell you, some are just retarded, some are just bitches, some are ass holes, and some are just in their own world. Not to be blamed though, you're special and oh so unique in your own way. PFFFTT. ;)

Okay, done with college stuffs. *phewww*

I wanna drive. But i just can't. Just one thing,

FEAR.

eeeee yup, that's more like it. Call me coward, penakut, scary cat or whatsoever I just need time. :/

Time, yaw. TIME.

Anyway, my last post for the Term 2 break. Will be back in 3 months time.

Take care and God bless you.

Miss me, kay?

........ And don't be weird like me, yeah? <3

HEHE.

.BYE.

Hell Hole.

2010-07-16T16:36:00.002+08:00

"Keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through"

Yes. College in 3 days. What joy. I can't wait to go back to college. Pffftt. Been super lazy and need to get my momentum back waking up everyday at 5 am in the morning, depressing eh? Well, think again. Mom decided not to send me to college now unless my class startst at 8, perfect timing for her decision. Oh and I've got my license already, like last week :) I dread seeing the driving track and the instructor himself, it's just weird. I failed once, hihihi. But yeah, what the heck. I failed the parking. Hmmph I could have passed it. God knows what went wrong that day. Anyway, driving on the road now with plenty of lunatic drivers who doesn't know how to control their car is just so freaking scary. It really is. Oh well, I still need to drive. Behold maniac drivers, I'm an addition to your clan. (:

Did I mention that i love watching Glee? It's just an awesome show. Drama aside, their song covers, i love. It might be too dramatic and emotional for some people out there who dislike this show, but I just love their covers and story line. It's superb. Go GLEE! Can't wait for Season 2. I just finished watching Season 1. I'm too hooked on it ;) And i'm currently obsessed with Harry Shum Jr.. Even though he's 28, EEEEKK. He's freaking cute. Love love love! In case you didn't know his character, he plays Mike Change/Other Asian in Glee. He's also a great dancer, and he's also in Step Up 3D. Hihihi. I'm in love with his voice, i think i just died a second there. *wakes up*

I think this shall be my last post of my two weeks of term break. I might not blog as often, maybe my next term break, haha. Which is like in October. (:

Till next time, bloggers.

Never say Never.

2010-07-14T23:00:00.002+08:00

" I wanna be a billionaire, so farking bad .. "

OHHHH. Yes i do, so effing fudging bad ): HAHAH. And be in the cover of Forbes magazine, smiling next to Oprah and the Queen? Nahhhhh. I want the billions more :D

I wanna watch Despicable Me so badly. So, please let me watch it before my term 3 starts. ): Nobody's willing to go out with me, such pity right? Ughhh. And I might not be here during the weekends, off to Penang if my mom allows. (:

I'm sooooooooooooo not looking forward for Term 3, though I'm looking forward for Internship after Term 3. Hihihi, kekeke. Lets see if i can pass Term 3 first kay? :p We have 13 subjects for Term 3 in 3 months. All that in 3 months??!! Hmmphh. Even SPM wasn't as tough as this. I didn't even take 13 subjects for SPM. OMG. I'm so freaking out ... *Exaggerating much, aren't I? Hihihi :p Oh well, now lets see if i even pass Term 2. Stupid college decides to release the results during Term 3. How stupid can they get? Ughhh. Its blardy unfair to pay for Term 3's fees if i failed Term 2. So, God knows when I'm paying my fees for Term 3. Taylor's Lakeside College can wait, i guess. HEHE :p

OHH. And btw, I just got my very own Tumblr. :D I was inspired by a whole lot of friends having Tumblr. I'm just amused by it, it's almost like a blog, but it can be also something like Twitter. You can just quote, post up videos, write text. And everything's just so simple and short in Tumblr. Simplicity is enough said at times though, no? :)

VISIT VISIT VISIT! :D

http://ashleychew.tumblr.com/

Go check it out kayyss. Anyways, i'm off for tonight. (:

Less than three, less than three <3

Don't let me go.

2010-07-04T17:34:00.003+08:00

Omg, it's been long since i updated my blog. Oh wells, nothing much happened anyway. Heehee.

I'm on my term break now, for 2 weeks. Maybe i'm gonna blog as much as i can, revive it as much as i can (:
Things were up and down for the past 2 months and still is. It's really hard, not sure how I'm going to cope. Few of my classmates deferred, moved to another college, moved to another course. I mean like, how bad is this course? It's just the second term and everyone is scattered. Whats gonna happen in Term 3 or even Term 6? It's something you choose to do, so don't give up easily.

I just don't understand people sometimes. I don't get them.

"Can people stop walking in and out of my life? Because I can't stand it anymore."

I just finished my exams. And i really hope i could pass this term and move on to the next. I don't wanna see my past lecturers anymore. It's just weird. Term 2 lecturers are just weird. Some is superrr retarded, some is superr scary. Gawd. This world is turning 360 degrees. :S

Anyway, i'm off now. Will update more. (:
Take care.

"I guess it's too late, i'm dancing this dance alone"

impossible.

2010-05-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

"I remember years ago, someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love"

Smile.

2010-04-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

Can I still smile?

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side
Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where
You send me, lets me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
'Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You spin my head, right round, right round .

2010-03-31T14:03:00.007+08:00

Eisshhhhhh. Tadaaaaa, i'm back ! (: hahaha. It's been like soooo long.

I bet you wanna know my SPM results hor? Haha. Its for me to know, and for you to find out. Because it wouldn't matter so much now to me, because i'm already in college doing what I wanna do, being what I wanna be. Go go go, and figure how many A's i got. Hahaha. Sounds so lifeless right, nahhh i'm satisfied with my results though. (: Never did anything good in something I should before. Hahah.

Anyway, college life is such a MESS. Pffftttt.
All these politics, where on earth did they come from? Pluto, Mars, China? Okay, now I'm being lame. Hahaha :p
But seriously all these politics are bringing everyone down, even me. ): What happened to the days where we spent out together in the Library? Nothing's forever, ey? Bull. Everything is Bull. Even if i don't know what's going on, at least share with us. We are a group and we're supposed to stick with each other through this 2 years. Hey now, tell us. Don't make us question you, because you wouldn't like it. Trust me. (:

Anyway.
Too emo-tic. Lol, (no such word, kayyy) (:
Hahaha.

So, I shall disappear ... And come back next one week? one month? 2 years? hahaha. Wait for me, then. (:

I want to Taste The Rainbow With A Rainbow Cake. (:

omgwtfbbq!

2010-02-21T02:14:00.003+08:00

Whooaaa it's been a very very long time since i updated my blog. I've lost all my blogging sense! Oh no! How i am gonna put this for you? I just realized that my blog existed, a few minutes ago after reading people's blog. I was like, where's mine? Hahaha. You know why? Because this is the first night, or should i say morning in this year, that I've stayed up really late. So, yeah. I realized it just a few minutes ago. Sheeeesshhh i'm such a loserrr =__=

How can i ever forget my own blog? ):

Well, i've been going through a lot lately. After the recent post on my blog, which was like, last month? i supposed everything turned out fine, now already. (:

I'm just gonna update as much as i could. If it's long, read it till your eyes sore. If it's short, read it without skipping the words! hahaaha. I'm so random :p

College life is a mess. Everything in that place is. I thought everything will be okay, but it's not. I had a bad time, fitting in with all the rich kids. I'm not rich myself. The reason why i chose Taylor's was for its' quality, not for its' name. (maybe the name plays a dipsy nipsy pipsy part! :D) Anyways, i started fitting in after quite some time. Actually I still don't really consider myself a Taylorian YET. Everything takes time. Give me a break, please. ): Buuuutt I still kept on being positive, hoping someday I could really fit in. And I did. So, its a good thing, right? (:

Just so you know, I'm taking Diploma in Hospitality Management. I have tons of assignments to be handed in, in a very short period. The lecturers are a pain in the bumbum! ): For now, I've just finished one assigment, and i have 5 more to go. The world just can't stop being cruel to me. ): (apologize for my broken english ;p) I can't wait for my internship in which I would be placed in a hotel of my choice, and get experience for 3 months. wooot~ I definitely hope I could reach that far. ((:

*fast-forward-ing*

WAAAHHH Chinese New Year already ah? So fast. Wa lao weyhh. :pp *apek-nising (if you guys understand, hahaha)*

Chinese New Year? What can I say about it? Mehhh, so boring ): Now i know how it feels to celebrate CNY in KL. Those people who doesn't have kampung's, I feel your pain. ):
I like going back to my hometown, Malacca during CNY. I like the massive traffic jams, I like the feeling of the road, that makes you sleep in the car, I like the vibe in my hometown, cause that's where I feel that CNY still exists. My mum said, you would understand later on about going back to my hometown. She just doesn't like it. Well, what's there to understand?! It sucks to celebrate in KL, eventhough, the roads feel empty and the cinema is most probably cukup makan for that period only. Besides, I only go back once in a year. ):

But still, celebrating it with your closed ones and relatives from Singapore aren't such a bad idea after all. (: We had fun, lou sang-ing and drinking. I didn't lah, I just touched Jolly Shandy and very little of Carlsberg. Euuwww, Carlsberg sucks btw =.=" Hahah. So yeah. We did have fun, with the Singaporeans. (: Went to Genting, took us 2 hours to blardy line up just to get into the effing cable car. hahah. It was fun though.

*slowing down*

I heard ... SPM results is just around the corner. OMGTIPO! I'm definitely doomed FIRST, and then I would be dead later. Common, let me enjoy more! 3 months, isn't long enough. haha wait, it is quite long already. Apart from dying and all, I'm actually quite excited to get my results. Like WTF right? HAHAH. I'm serious, I am excited. I hope the outcome is a satisfaction. I hope this exciting feeling of mine, is a good thing in getting my results. not a bad one )': Oh,according to a reliable and believable source, the results are coming out on the 16th of March 2010. Brace yourselves, 2009 SPM-ers. Our day is coming very soon. (:

OMG. It's 3 something in the morning already! I'm supposed to be studying for my assessment on Monday. Geography kills my brain. ): Wish me luck.

Hopefully I would update my blog very soon enough, and not once in a blue moon. (:
Bwahahaha.

checked out.

hohohohohohoho

2010-01-13T20:12:00.001+08:00

starting college in 1, 2, 3, 4 ... 4 DAYS! (:

should i be excited or not?

so i read and heard ...

2010-01-10T15:58:00.004+08:00

all this things happening in this country, is seriously making me speechless.

hopefully, it subsides.

and what happened to 1Malaysia?

...

try thinking before acting. (:

it helps. ALOT.

overdue.

2010-01-08T11:39:00.010+08:00

i haven't been blogging for quite some time now.

this post is long overdue.

well, what about New Year?
nahh, same old, same old.
nothing much to blabber about.
frankly speaking, i don't celebrate new
everything is gonna change this year.
i mean like everything.

I've officially made up my mind. Doing what? Hotel Management. Where? Taylor's! (: hahah. hopefully, i could get in with my effing bad results. haih. i totally dissappointed my mum and she was like, how could you not get at least 5 A's, so that you could get a scholarship and help me out on the fees? i'm like shit, i tried my best. well getting 19 = 9G for Sejarah it's totally MY fault. i studied that last minute. hahah. sometimes i feel i do good in things i shouldn't do. like my gerak gempur or whatsoever you call that, and it was right after trials. guess what? i got an A for Maths and an A for Science. like wtf man, why am i always the unlucky one? ughhhh. i got both B's for those two subject for trials. eishhhh freaking pissed when things happened like that.

09.01.10 = Saturday.

Went to Taylor's. Everything "kau tim" = settled. I registered, with my effing horrible results. if some of you did thought why would i go for the January intake since my trials results - are bad, well, first i just wanna start early and end early. not like everyone else. i'm already a step ahead of them, and btw i'm not rushing lah. seriously. most of my friends got selected for NS and they DO NOT wanna go. some do, very few. sigh. second, maybe starting earlier is better, i do not have to waste time, like loafing around at home. - isn't that boring? it already sounds boring to me. i just have to get rid of my driving lessons, make sure i complete all the drivings i had before entering college, which i doubt that could happen.

and OHHH ..

anyone i possibly know is going to Taylor's Lakeside? and for January intake?! i'm gonna be a stranger there, and nobody to take the public transport with. ): at least, a friend i know of, it doesn't have to be someone close to me. hahah.

btw, i just found out something really really sad. to me la. i thought i could get away with the uniform shit, but do you know i have to be formal when i go to college? even when i go for classes or whatsoever, i have to be formal?! eff man. seriously. sheeessshhhh. so much for getting away with the dress code. well at least i'm not stucked with the blue kurung and white baju = baju kurung. ;p

- i'm gonna get a knife set! like those folded knife set kinda thing. hahah, so cool. (: and the best part is, my mum wants me to stick my name, those sticker names thingy, yea, onto each knife. i find that abit lame and cute at the same time hahahah ;) because one of the chefs said students tend to lose their knives, and he has to keep them and wait till someone redeems it back. but no one did. HAHA. so afterall, sticking names onto each knives isn't such a bad idea after all right? ;)

so right now. waiting for the letter of acceptance.

and i'm going to college on the 18th. (:

excited, but at the same time, feeling really really scared. ;(

so, i heard some form 5's are stressing already about their future ..

well ...

Coming from me, teeehee ;) .. Here are some, "maybe" useful tips to those Form 5's right now, that are already thinking of what they wanna do for their future. well right now, study hard and smart for your SPM. nothing is more important than that. assuming if you wanna take up something that you want to do, but you can't in the end, and it's all because of your result. well, isn't that heartsick? so yeah, just do your best for SPM. all those thinking and stuffs could wait. you could do that later. some parents who are the pushy type, ahlaa just close one ear or masuk kiri keluar kanan or whichever way, just do that la. hahah to me, SPM is reallyyyyy important. i myself, my parents never did pressured me in studies before, well they do, but not the really really kiasu one la. - the answer to my bad results. hahah ;p but i wouldn't want my parents to be like that.

it's always easier said than done.

so if you know what's best for you, go ahead. it's your instinct, your life, your choice, your interest. so YOU decide.

okay? hopefully this helps. hahah even though i know nobody reads my blog, but wtf la. haha ;)

keeping me alive

2009-12-29T23:18:00.006+08:00

you're just so unpredictable.

i'm taking my amali tomorrow! (:
and it's only 3 hours. lol
i just need my phone, and the music in it.

because it drives me away from reality.
and every single minute counts.

nights. <3

cookies, christmas ...

2009-12-28T23:09:00.008+08:00

hello there, <3'es. style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">christmas was fun ;)

i get to eat good food, sadly i'm missing the lamb this year ;(
went over to my aunt's place as usual.
it's like a tradition. lol.

oh, before that,
i had a baking festival at home,
it's like non-stop. ahaha
cookies, then brownies.
and next, creme brulee?
heheh, i should really start exploring you know.
i might be able to start a business, selling pastries ;)
i can get good income for that. (:

the first batch, was for my mum's colleagues.
it had icing sugar on it, packed prettily, and tied with a ribbon.

the icing sugar lasted quite awhile. (:

"promoting" xD
RM 5 for 15. (: hahah

it wasn't enough though,
we curi-curi makan :D

the ones with the almond strips ;)

the best part about baking cookies,
is that it turns out the way I want it to. HAHA
btw, i tried bailey's on some cookies. hahaha :D
it tasted like baileys hahahah

so yeaaa.
i don't have pictures for the second batch.
i do have pictures of the brownies,
but they don't really look appetizing, so NO. hahah ;D

call me yo, if you want to order xDD
hahahah

oh.
back to christmas.
i practically did nothing at my aunt's house.
hahah, all i did was going back and forth to the kitchen
my mum bought turkey, and it was in the oven.
gawd, the smell.
ughhh, i can still smell it ):
so hungry -.-

turkey. (:
yum yum.

the salad was really good. (:

the awesome-ness garlic breads in town! (;

the food.

Rouffieeee x)
he's so fat and cute. UGHHHHHH xD

my baby Roufus. (:

pretty right? <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_XNavayPL7oo/SzjYpjy2ePI/AAAAAAAAAdA/wfC-pSs6ft4/s1600-h/25122009368.jpg">
the best part about christmas. (:
and to be with your family of course!

there you go.
my christmas (:

anyway, i got to run.
ttyl <3

the bells are jingling.

2009-12-25T00:18:00.006+08:00

ughhhh im so lazy to update everything now.
lets just summarize everything, shall we? ;)

i woke up at 9.
went to Taylor's Lakeside Campus and Sunway University College.
since, it's just on the way.
and i went to Taylor's Subang Jaya too.
ahahah, my mum and I got lost, finding the lakeside campus
didn't know it was in puchong. pffft. =X

so yea.
the lakeside campus, it's really new.
not fully done yet, so i can't judge the place.
but roughly, a little.
and the guy who escort us to all the places,
he told us the workers are rushing, finishing up the place
and they are like working 24/7.
kesian. hahah ;D

so, after that we went down to Sunway's.
to be honest with you people out there,
Sunway doesn't really major in hospitality.
you could actually see it in their college itself.
it's really limited.
and the lady who talked to me about this course,
saying that,
they are not specialized in this area.
as you can see their numbers of students.
she told me, that if you prefer applying to something, instead of managing
then it's not the place i'm looking for.
she insisted me to go for Taylor's or Berjaya.

true enough, i'm not.
i'm not that person that manages stuff well.
though, it depends lah. tee hee ;D
i'm more to applying you know.

so, now, is hotel MANAGEMENT suitable for me?
mmm ;O

well, i don't care la.
if i chose hotel, and that's what i'll do.
and i'll finish it up, i promise i wouldn't be a half past six.
i would finish the whole course. i WOULD.
sigh.

now, it's either between Berjaya or Taylors.
ahhhh, decisions again. it never gets old.
i like both, actually.

advantages of Berjaya ;
- not many students. up to like 100 something?
- therefore, less competition. can be the best out of the rest ;)
- and higher chance of being the best, if i do well.
- convenient. take lrt, interchange with monorail.
- hence, i wouldn't spend much money on transportation.
- nice place though.

disadvantages of Berjaya ;
- it just came up like, last year? i mean, the college.
- not really recognized by people.
they would be like,
"oh where are you going ah for college?"
"umm, berjaya?"
"oh, where is that?"
" ...."
- therefore, i don't like that. HAHA. sorry la, i just had to. :p
- a small place, compared to Taylor's. DUHHHH
that means that i'll get bored of it easily.
i have to travel around, and around the same place. hahah

_______________________________________________________

advantages of Taylor's ;
- the name. (:
lol, not really a part of an advantage.
well it could be in a way.
- the hostel.
- the place/environment.
- they are connected to University of Toulouse. ;)
which i get to learn French! it's a part of their course. hahah :D
- they are recognized by people.
so like, when people ask you,
"where you're going after your studies?"
oh Taylor's!
"ahh, nice nice. which one?"
"there, the lakeside campus wan lah!"
"waaaa, so good. not bad."
xDD
u see, it's more about the name and the place ;(

- big big place. really BIG one. superb kitchens and restaurants

disadvantages of Taylor's ;
- it's really far.
but they do provide buses and all. and there's one at Giant, Melawati ;DD
- it's expensive.
ughhhh. that's least my worries. hahah
- competition higher. i have to be like the BEST, and i mean the best.

lawl.
just give me your opinions! ;)
will appreciate it much! thanks. (:

oh and MERRY CHRISTMAS YAWWWW! ;)
<3>

family.

2009-12-22T01:56:00.005+08:00

went out with my mum for a movie.

in pavilion.
watched Avatar.

superduperluper long movie weyyhh.
i almost pee'ed in there x)

i was amused by the christmas decorations at Pavilion.
i find it pretty, and it kinda reminded me of Singapore's Orchard Road.
it's been a long long long time since i've been there.
i've missed it alot. (:
even though, we're just next to each other,
i don't go there often.
it's only that particular place, where you feel the christmas vibe.
i'm not sure about the others, but to me, it is.
i miss Singapore! take me there, if you're going.
hehehe ;)

so we took pictures, i was hoping i could catch the so-called 'snow'.
but i didnt. ):
next time, maybe?

oh what fun it is to ride,
in a one horse open sleigh. (:

eishh, the quality sucks like crap -.-
i need a good camera! );

"the mama and daughter" shot. (:
i hate flashes =X

oh oh tomorrow is some chinese winter festival thingy
i'm gonna make "tang yuen",
it's like a small ball, and coloured with different colours. (:
filled with gula melaka.
it's mainly flour, and you boil it in hot water with pandan leaves.
yum yum. i love the water especially.

well, how do you make your "tang yuen"? ;)

<3

aches and cramps.

2009-12-22T01:48:00.001+08:00

omygosh.
my whole body is aching. )x
why oh why.

i dont wanna sleep yet, heheh ;)

xoxo. <3

this and that.

2009-12-21T17:07:00.005+08:00

wooiishhh~
i passed my undang-undang test! hahah
43/50, yo.
i know it's terrible, but at least i passed.
cukup2 makan also, i don't mind.
at least i don't have to go back there and re-sit the whole thing again.
i doubled check my answers and all.
it's good, and i'm happy. (:
*is this a sign that my spm results would be as good as this?*
i hope so. :S

__________________________________________________

he's been out of Malaysia for more than 3 days now.
and i'm beginning to feel like he's not with me anymore.
his absence made me realize that i can actually live without him.
well at least i think i can.
all his doings, and whatever he said to me, his words ...
are all empty.
it has never been fulfilled.
maybe he's having fun there, right? ;S

it's always easier said than done.
don't you think so?

yes, i do admit that i have my flaws.
i'm not perfect, and so are you.
i'm just beginning to feel that you and i do not need each other anymore.
is that so?

__________________________________________________

oh yes! i'm supposed to blog about college/christmas.
well, actually there's nothing much. (:
no pictures for this post. :D
maybe the next one, i'm just writing this post now,
since i have the time.
i've been really busy with everything.
and yes i AM.
well, life isn't easy after spm.
there's so many things you have to get done with.
my driving lessons, my prom, thinking about which college,
thinking about which intake, visiting colleges, etc etc.
you see?
it's not easy.

there are decisions to be made everyday.
for me, of course. (:
i don't know about you. but yea.
and i have outings, and reunions and blah bla.
the list just goes on and on.
and i have an upcoming party this wednesday.
and on that day itself, i'm going to Taylor's Lakeside Campus for a visit.
and i haven't really officially declared a day off, since spm ended few weeks ago.

it's been like a roller-coaster ride, since then.
parties, movies, na na na.
i wanna go on a holiday! i need one, BADLY. ):
but looks like, i wouldn't be going anywhere,
for this 2 more weeks til this year ends.
including next year, hopefully not. ))):
i demand a HOLIDAY.
a free airline ticket to wherever, i don't care.
just not here. not in Malaysia.

i just need a timeout from everything.
before i start making those "everyday" decisions. ):
please?

hopefully, i'm free tomorrow.
(:

ttfn, <3'es

next post ; not sure yet. LOL

paintball. (:

2009-12-20T22:55:00.005+08:00

hello. (:

i'm back with my paintball post.
maybe you guys won't read it, or won't give a damn about it.
but, i'll still post it up though.
it's a blog.
and it's meant to be shared,
it wouldn't be a blog, if it's dead.
so, that's why i decided not to delete it.
even though, i know people do not give a damn about what i'm writing,
or they don't read my blog.
well, i shouldn't be depressed because of that.
am not complaining. (:

anyways, moving on ..
i went for a paintball game with my mum,
and her colleagues and my cousin, and a few of her people.
i HAD FUN! :D
triple fun, fun, fun!

the name of the place is TanaMera.
it's one of the biggest in Asia, that's what i heard.

http://tanamerapaintballpark.blogspot.com/
this is their blog, if you're interested in the place. (:

we had our breakfast at McDonalds.
i love their breakfast meals! so appetizing. hahah ;p

and we were actually running late already.
we had to wait for this and that person, so yea.

snickers!
it went missing somehow.
i didn't get a bite. ): screw the person who took it. muahahah

so we arrived almost about 1130.
and we got ready with the equipments.
and had a short brief for the first-timers, which was me! haahah

then we headed out to the first place, which was the house.

honestly, i was one freaking shit-scared bimbo man!
i nearly burst out of tears, after i got hit and it immediately turned blue black.
i was like shit man, WTF, WTH and all. :p
well, i was one of the groups that charged into the bushes,
where you can hide and stuffs.
so yea, we charged front and we shoot like mad cows.
but our markers was stupid and it's not as powerful as the others.
and then there was two men, who charged to our area,
and shoot us like nobody's business.
i SCREAMED, i tell you! hahahah
i know i'm a softy okay, i'm sorry laaa. hahah
i'm a noob, and it was my first time OK!

so, after my embarrassing moment,
i ran out to where we had to get our stamps.
it was special that day.
we had like 6 lives, so after we got shot one time we could actually play again.
and in order to play again,
we are given a card with 6 boxes
and each time you get shot, you must get back to the marshal for a stamp.
so, yeah i went back and get my stamp.
and YES, i didn't get back to the game. hahah ;D
i was too terrified, i was already on the verge of bursting into tears.
i got hit on my arm, it bleed a little.
i'm sorry la, if you think i'm weak.
at least i've got the guts to come back for more,
which was held at other places.

there was 3 locations/places to play in that whole area.
actually there's more la, but we played only 3.
the house, the lake placid, and the vietcong jungle.
i had a bad experience at the house. i hated it. hahah

so after the house, we are about to get ready for the next place.
which is the lake placid.
OHHH i tell you, i loved that place man. hahah
it's freaking awesome you know!
i mean the game plan, and we had a few of the pro's on our side.
haahahah, that's why it was FUN! ;D
but i surrendered, was out of pellets. ):

so after the lake,
we went for another place.
which was the vietcong village.
this was okok only lah. ahahah
it was the mask fault, it fogged up the whole lens! ):
then i can't really see, and by the time i had a chance to shoot,
i was shot by someone else.
two shots some more.
no mercy weyyyh. ):

here are some pictures, i took. (:

we had our briefing, lunch, and all here. hahah ;)

my marker. (:
if you're wondering, it's not really heavy.
it's just the stupid gas thingy that makes it heavy.
it made my right hand ache like crap after that. ):

this was on the way to the place.
*my dancing-froggie! (:*

my mask!
it was all sweaty after that. ;)

the pallets.
it was all in orange only. ):

look like gum balls right? haaahha
it looks really really sweet and appetizing to chew.
but it's NOT. it's bitter like crap. hahaha
my mom tasted it, when it was on her mask.
EWWW -.-

bruise no. 1 (:
this was the last place, where i got shot.

bruise no. 2 (:
this was when i was at the house la!
it bled you know! and they were not suppose to shoot at short range.
eishhhhh.

i actually had one on my tummy.
hehehe, i took a picture of it.
but it wasn't clear. ):

we packed up at 5 something?
it was already raining, by the time we stopped playing.
i was really Knocked.Out.
i have proof!
which is
....

slept in the car, with my mouth wide open. (:
hahahah :D

in conclusion, tire yourself, and you'll get a good night sleep!
i really had one.
the moment i lied on my bed,
i SLEPT.
in other words, K.O. :D
normally, it would take me hours to sleep. ):

and OH btw, i'm having my undang-undang test tomorrow!
wish me luck. ((((:
i haven't really studied anyway. ):

haahah.
that's it for now, loves. (:
goodnight.

next post, college and christmas!

RE : Prom was ehh ...

2009-12-19T00:46:00.013+08:00

it's almost 1.

and i'm having body aches now.
*thanks to paintball*
still, i don't wanna sleep yet.
xpuas lah if i don't blog and on facebook before i sleep.
ahahh, (:

ehem.
so, prom was alright for me.
i can't say it was BLARDY awesome.
and it's not ok also, like some sort in the middle.
i'll tell you that in a bit.
by the way, my phone's camera quality sucks like shet. ):
so, bear with it.

I got my hair done, my make up on, prom dress on, heels on before 6. haahah, i didn't have a choice. my mum had to do my make up, and i don't know what's this and that. so yeah, i had to ask my mum, since it's what she does every morning before she goes to work. and she had to rush back to office before 5, by right. but nick-nack here and there, it was already about 5 something. i didn't take pictures during the make up session with my mum ): i didn't have anyone to take pictures for me. T.T So by the time i got ready and all, it was 6 and my dad said, i better leave early, might get stuck in the jam if i don't. tengok2, it wasn't jam AT ALL. i reached there like less than 15 minutes? hahah so i had to wait. and wait. and wait. and wait.

for Lam. my ticket/card entrance is with her. she reached LATE. hahah ;) then i sat at the lobby, waiting for them and played with my phone.

the lobby. or should i say the main entrance? o.O
i better know all this, since i'm taking hotel management. ;S
hahaha, memalukan only ;(

anyway, i played and played the game over and over again.
i kept losing and losing and losing.
soon after that, i gave up.
hahah.

so i met up with Lam after that. and the ticket/card entrance was cool. (:
I <3>

the card says it all. (:

So, we got in. and sat at the table. waited for the food.
it was good actually, but i didn't had much though. ):

our table.

during that period, we met some bee eye tee see h es. two actually.
if you know what i meant, hahah, yeah we did. (:
if i'm not mistaken, one of them called me or Lam a bee eye tee see h.
seriously man, what's their problem?

gawd.
this is what i hate, when you get uneducated people in functions, like this.
and the girl represented emcee for the night, her English wasn't perfect,
but at least can understand laah.
and one of them said, "What kinda prom is this?"
seriously, i felt like showing them the middle finger.
shut your trap, and it's not like you can speak that well either.
or maybe even worse.
&*%$#!

gahhhhh. they are really really bee eye tee see h es.
ok. i'm over it. hahah ;)

christine and may kee. (:

they had fun, dancing on the dance floor! hahah
i had fun too ;p
though i know my dancing is retarded,
but still, there's a day you should really step out from your shell,
and give it all out. well, not all. :D

at first i was really shy about you know, dancing and stuffs.
since i didn't have a date, and Lam was absolutely quiet that night,
i dragged Alyssa, Christine and Athirah. hahah
but they left me sooner or later.
so i practically walk back and forth, from my table to the dance floor,
begging Lam to come along, and enjoy the fun.
but she didn't though.
i have no idea, what's gotten into her ;S
to know that your friend is not having fun, you wouldn't also kan?

anyways, Bunkface was there. Caprice and all the deejays also.
too bad i couldn't stay long. ):
and i wouldn't want to anyway.

do you think it was a night to remember?
well, it was to me. ;)

we actually have more pictures, but it's not with me.
i should get it from them soon.
or just visit christine's blog lah. easier. (:
hopefully, she uploads it.

need to lose more weight. ):

paintball post up next!

prom was ehh ...

2009-12-18T01:26:00.001+08:00

i'm back from prom, like 2 hours ago! (:
i'll blog about it soon, with pictures guaranteed! x)

i hope everything goes well.

2009-12-16T23:23:00.008+08:00

gawd.
i was busy last 2 days.
not really lah, but i was out the whole day on Monday.
went to pavi, then walked back to klcc, two and flow.
my leg was practically numb. walked alot.
i can't walk down the stairs, i can la haha, but it's hard ):
this shows i have not exercise for, AGES.
i know i know, i should now.
since, i keep saying "after spm lah", for this and that.
my "after spm's" doesn't really work. ):
hahah, i actually got no time now.
SERIOUSLY. -.-

because i'm very tired. it's not an excuse. i go out almost everyday, and i only have like a day in a week to rest? or maybe two? and i either sleep or go on facebook. but i find facebook, boring already lah. hahah ;) so yea. when i go out, i come back like around 5 or 6, so the least i do is take a really short nap, and when i mean short, it's really short. around 15 mins? hahah i don't really sleep early also, that's one thing. i can't sleep early, that's the problem. ): maybe because i feel it's too early and nobody is sleeping yet, except me .. and i'll feel left out .. haha :D

note to self ; never underestimate driving kursus'es. x)

if you thought that, it's nothing and it's boring,
well let me tell you this,
it IS REALLY REALLY SUPER DUPER LUPER boring.
and you waste time doing nothing. ):

my butt was crying for the last 3 hours.
yea, i should bring a small pillow for my butt next time.
wait, there won't be a next time. hahah,
so for you all out there,
do not, and i mean DO NOT EVER underestimate the course man.
you'll suffer tahap dewa okay.
lol. at least for that first 5 hours, you'll get a break in between.
but then, the last 3 hours will be the torturing one.
ishhh, thank God, i went through it already! (:

now.
i just have to study.
can't believe i'm still studying after spm.
at least, it's common sense lah, should be.
hopefully.
and i hope i'll pass. cukup-cukup makan also i don't mind.
as long as i passed. (:

___________________________________________________________

it's prom tomorrow! ):
my date wouldn't be in Malaysia tomorrow!
*double ):*
hmmm, do you think friends are worth being your date?
or do you think they will just go to their other friends, and dump you?
while, they said, "don't worry, i'll be your date. i'll be with you."
is that so?

sigh sigh sigh.
it's hard that i don't have a date.
at least i know that, he's gonna stick with me the whole time.
teeheee ;)

it's not too late to ask me as your date you know.
hahahh, well not until tomorrow night. (:

anyways, i should catch some sleep now.
take care. goodnight. (:

cause i wouldn't mind being a frog, if i'm gonna live happily ever after later on.

2009-12-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

cause i'm fully booked next week.

2009-12-13T22:13:00.004+08:00

oh my.
next week, which is tomorrow onwards,
it's gonna be hell. ):
at least it's gonna make me busy.

i hadn't been sleeping well every night, since after my exams were over. I'm so tired. i feel like i'm still going through a hard time, even without the word, SPM in my head. ): i need a holiday, somewhere far far away from here. anyway, moving on about next week ..

monday. reunion with my ex schoolmates.
tuesday. "college hopping" with my mum. haha.
wednesday. driving course, which is the whole effing day.
thursday. piano lesson, prom.
friday. paintball.

busy woman, eh?

hopefully, it would be fun. prom? i have a bad feeling about, being left out, all alone. ): driving? nono, never studied a shit. about my future, i think i've clearly clearly clearly made up my mind. yes, hotel management. just now, i have to search for the right college, the right environment and what so not. whether i'm taking diploma, or degree, whether i'm going for the first intake or after i get my spm results. OH NO. i don't wanna crawl back into all this mess again. i need time, i haven't really spent it all yet. give me some time. i know i shouldn't wait.

oh, btw i've got my usb cable already.
sadly, i have to upload some software.

i'm date-less for prom.
care to be my date?

cause you're weighing me down.

2009-12-08T23:45:00.005+08:00

it's funny that you realize what you did wrong,
but never made an effort to make it up.

it's funny how you give me lame excuses,
but never realized it, once.

it's funny that you know your weakness,
but never wanted to improve, just for me.

it's funny how you say "i love you" everytime,
but never meant once, at all.

it's funny that you reply my messages,
but never reply the ones you don't want to.

it's funny.
everything about you is.

when will it stop being about you?
why must it be your way, and not mine?
and i thought after exams, would be better than before.
why didn't it change? why are you making this hard for us?

every single thing you do, revolves around you.
you pulled me down, you dragged me into your lies,
you made me believe who you are, when you're not.
you made me feel like a fool.
you made me looked like a fool.

it's my time, to be under the big spotlight.
it's my time, to do everything i want to.
it's my time, to be what i want to be.
it's my time.

stop being selfish.
just stop.

wake up, please.

cause i'm so smart.

2009-12-08T12:15:00.007+08:00

as dumb as i could get.

i deleted my chatbox.
i deleted my list of friend's blogs.
i deleted that traffic thingy.
smart move, ashley.
=.=

anyway.
i just registered myself for driving.
kursus next week, wednesday.
and guess what.
it's from 8 AM - 4 PM.
WTF.

i'm gonna be all alone for 8 hours. ):
damn.

eeeeeee i want my usb cable! sobs.

cause i've been away for too long.

2009-12-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

ehem. ehem.

WHASSSUPPPPP! (:
hahahaha.
like ohmygawd, i miss blogging.
i've got tons to talk about!
i have no idea where to start from.
well, i end this because of spm.
now, i'll revive it back after spm.

hahah, actually i miss SPM.
seriously. i mean, except for taking the exams.
everything we had to go through day and night.
all you do is STUDY STUDY STUDY.
like a mad cow. now i'm free.
I'm so not used to this. ):

well. BM paper was a breeze. I hope so.
BI was okay. Maths was fine. Add maths was terrible.
other than that, should be alright.
Economics was not so easy, but i answered everything.
i hope i don't flunk the paper. i screwed my kajian kes.
yes. and that's my spm. (:

well, today.
the end of spm.
all the hardwork of 11 years.
all the stress we had,
all the pain we've gone through,
all the brainstorming.
i hope it will pay off someday.

so there you go, my 11 years of hardship.
heh.
i'm starting to miss every single thing about it! ));

OHHHH YES
my birthday! hahaahah
my parents bought me a really really really awesome phone.
which i didn't think it would be a phone.
i love love love love youuuuu!
and i love love love my friends. thank you for the cake.
i love love love youuuu all like crazy. :D

we had fun today.
a last minute plan.
so so last minute.
watched New Moon for like the second time.
hahaha, the cinema was effing cold.
was practically freezing in there. almost wanted to pee. ):
hahah so later on, we head to Wangsa Walk.
had Pop Eyes. hahahah i like to say it that way*
my awesomely-loving friends sang happy birthday to me. (:
thank you so much guys. )':

i'll post up the pictures soon.
don't have a usb cable now. ):

anyways.
i'm gonna head to my bed.
it's been too long since i slept without worries.
now i can just close my eyes,
with nothing in my head. (:

hopefully it happens.
goodnight.
;)

cause i'm deleting it.

2009-10-04T14:47:00.004+08:00

yup.
i'm planning to stop playing games from now. and yes, i'm serious about it. i should have known better, from day one. no use regretting it now. so, what the heck. my farmville is dead. every game, will be. unless i ask someone to play it for me la. anyways, i'm not worried much about blogging. now, i find it really really boring. nobody reads it. so, i might just delete this account. and maybe when i'm little older, i'll have a new one. ;) jealousy strikes me, when i read people's blog. how they write and stuffs, so inspirational. plus, no one reads my blog. i'm not complaining, but i don't see the reason why i should write to myself when nobody reads it. and i'm not a popular kid in school. if i am, there will be tons of people visiting my blog, following me, and leave maybe a message in my chatbox. yea, dream on, ashley. omgee, i am complaining. *dushhh.*

anyways, just got my hair trimmed. it's really really short. i miss my long hair ;( was saving it, for perming. but the expert said i shouldn't cause it'll spoil my hair. FINE. *SNAP* there goes my hair. it's not short, short laa. shorter than my usual hair. ahaha. spm is like in less than 50 days now. i should buck up now. yea, i really should. haha. i'm so lazy. i should pray more often, listen to God. and hope he gives me the will to study my ass off now. since like i only have 6 days to study one blardy subject. moving on .. after spm. should really think about my future. don't bother asking me what i'm going to do after spm, bla bla cause i'll just say 'i dunno?'. but i've got one in my mind now. which i probably choose. working in a hotel. Hotel management that is. lets just see how it goes. (:

okay. what else? .. nahh i think that's it. i'll post some pictures up later. that's if i have a proper camera. stupid phone sudah mati. it's so hard to live without a camera. ): and to all PMR students out there, goodluck for your exams. do well. ;) OH i won't be blogging till end of december yo!

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yes, for real. heetee(:

;ashley.

2009-09-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

oh how i wish to live for free. ):

blog. blog. blog.

2009-09-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

i think my life is just purely lame and pathetic.
add on to this blog of mine.
it's just so sad that nobody reads it.
feels like i'm talking to myself );

anyway.
i just came back from Pavi like an hour ago.
and there's this shop call 'Accessorize'.
the stuffs they sell there are like the bomb man.
and i mean, like really the BOMB.
it cost like a BOMB too. ahaha.
i admired this hat. it looks like a beanie.
which was really adorable.
so tempted to get one. till my mum was like,
"you check the price and see."
and i was *:O* lol
it cost like 100 over weyhh. ):

oh btw.

i think i might consider myself getting a hammy!
heehee. i think the movie, G-Force influenced me A LOT.
gawd, they are like the cutest thing ever.
i just watched that movie in Pavi just now.
serious comel. (:
but i think its impossible for me to have one.
the fact that i have two cats at home.

and.

i think, my dad is one of a kind.
he's really one in a million.
i love his stupidity. his lame jokes.

"Eh, girl i'm going out okay. with your uncle"
"Er, okay."
"I'm going out now. bye"
"Okay."

*about an hour later*
my mum asked.

"Where's your dad?"
"Went out. Supper-ing kot."
"Oh, did he take the car?"
"I guess so. Don't think he will walk."

then my mum went downstairs. and later she came up,
told me that my dad didn't take the car.
and i was like, "yes he did la. you must be sleeping." ahaha
so we continued arguing about it.

after a few minutes. he came home. and i asked my dad.

"Pa, you took the car ah?"
"No laa."
"Then, how you went out?"
"I took the car laa."
"Hah? But i thought you said you didn't take the car?"
"I didn't take the car laa. I took the Proton."
"Proton is a car laa, pa. -.-""

gawd. lamest thing ever weyy.
my mum was laughing at the background
and i was laughing like crap. my mum was like,
"you have the best dad ever laa". then i said,
"you have the best husband ever laaa. ahaha."
seriously,he's just so blur at times.
*o.O*
that's what makes him so special ;)

that's all. (:
goodnight everyone.

.ttfn.

2009-09-17T23:49:00.004+08:00

do you know you're so stuck up,
till the world hates you,
and kicked you to planet pluto,
so you could just get a life there?

keep the comments to yourself. (:

when everything isn't right.

2009-09-17T23:28:00.009+08:00

ahhhhh.

so tired. barely slept these few days. spm is in like 2 more months. i seriously don't know where to start. you know, with so many chapters, have to get all that ready in 2 months time. it's not something i'm looking forward to it, well nobody is, but i think i'll do my best since it's like my last year in school. with history bugging me, all the tamadun stuffs, oh gawd. i HATE form 4 chapters. all the facts are really deep. and i hate mugging subjects. it wouldn't last a second.

anywayyyyywayyy ;

i couldn't believe the President of The United States would call Kanye West a jackass. ahaha

*tabiks*

though he is one. ahaha (:

and i hate this blog for some reason. ):

walk a mile in their shoes.

2009-09-11T12:45:00.009+08:00

jai ho everyone!
hahaha. i don't know what it means, but to me, it's HELLO! (:

i seriously dislike the way people are taking advantage on others.
its a matter of respect even though you're older or younger. it doesn't make any diff.
to me, i treat everyone the same. i think ..

i just hate the fact that you comment my work.
just when i'm putting a 101% into it, you talk about how i work and that's just not nice.
i mean seriously, i tried my best searching stuffs that can satisfy your taste and you comment?
come on la, be more reasonable.
what, you think i have all the time searching for your crap?
you think you're in your grandfather's world is it?

i have really pathetic *ehem* . i so want to say it, but no.
can't believe that my rage is so into these people.

well, anyway moving on ..
i adore Thursdays now. because you wanna know why?
it's Pasar Malam day! lol. where they sell awesomebombosome shoes!
and they are not just ordinary shoes, they are CROCS. Yes, crocs.
and no, it's not fake nor pirated.
these shoes are actually sold in pasar malam because it's not "perfect".
but i don't see why, it's a problem. because nothing is a perfect.
rather than spending 200 bucks to buy A pair, my mum bought 3 pairs yesterday for just 90 bucks. do your math!
and, i repeat .. they are CROCS. original CROCS. not those pirated ones.
that does not have the crocodile sign or the word. those are uselesscheapskate ones.
go get a life lah! (:

so i searched for the pictures in the internet.

i personally adore this one.

my dad got this one for just 35 bucks. beat that.

i love this one too! (:

oh btw, i feel like i'm puasa-ing with the malays for some reason.
ahaha, it's good lah. berdiet okay. even though, i enjoy being fat. not really.
so yea. to those who wants to diet and save money, go fast with the malays. hehe
it works apparently, for my brother.

(need to blog more often)

me and baba.

2009-09-08T20:15:00.004+08:00

oh. and good luck to those who are taking UPSR!
sigh. miss being in primary school. where you don't feel an inch of stress ):

btw, i had a short conversation with baba. (that's how i call him now :p)
we were messaging. and i find that it was funny and a little bit weird at the same time.
then, i decided to post it up for you readers out there. (if there is :D)
so, this was how it went ...

before it happened, i just finished tuition. and my dad picked me up. then he needed to bank in some money. we went to a bank nearby jusco. and he asked me to wait for him in the car. so there i was sitting, singing to a song like some lunatic. till a man appear. a couple to be exact. that man was scary. he was staring at me, as if he wanted to hijack the car. but he had a wife. so, i wasn't too scared. hehe. i wind down the window, and he started talking to me in some language that i don't even understand. but i got hold of his last sentence. and i think it was in mandarin. very the pure kinda type. ahahha. i think laa, he said "do you understand what am i talking?" LOL. i nodded my head. and he went off. for a second, i felt like a weirdo instead of him -.-"

then i told baa about it.

Me : Ba, tadi in the car right, there was this couple looking at me. and i don't seem
to understand what were they talking. Scary T.T

Baa : How old the couple? Our age?
Me : Older than us lah, like in the 40's? or 50's?
Baa : Owh. I thought wat laah. How did they look at you?
Me : They were staring at me lah in the car. Haiyo. My dad xdr lagi that time. He
kat bank. I was waiting in the car. Then, the man was looking at me, so i wind
down the window. I xunderstand what he was saying. Hehe.
Baa : Hayoyoyo. Hehe. Maybe they were asking for directions kot. Are you home
already?
Me : Yea. He looked like a rapist. Scary you know. Except that he had a wife. -.-
Baa : Hehe. You like that ke?
Me : Like that he's a rapist? NO. Like that he got a wife? YES.
Baa : Hehe. Good answer. (:

So there you go. haahaha. A weird yet funny conversation that i had to post it up in my blog.
to me it is funny and weird laa. ahaha. (:

thats all for now! byeeee!

tonight's gonna be a good night.

2009-09-08T14:54:00.001+08:00

HOHOHOHOHOHO.

I'm done with trials babeyhhh! (;
spm now, on the waiting list. damn.
next thing you know,
byebye school. (:

to those who are still sitting for trials,
good luck to you and you and youuuu!
*rubs it on the face*
sorry, but i had to make it like its a big deal.
teehee ;p

oh results.
don't wanna care.
don't wanna know.
*trying hard to*

TTFN.

Live Like You're Dying.

2009-09-04T15:40:00.004+08:00

oh, thank God.

I'm done with add maths paper. hope the result would be satisfying. (:
last paper is accounts on tuesday. can't wait to get rid of trials.

oh.
i've got a music to share with you people out there reading my blog. teeheee
it's called 'Live Like You're Dying' by Lenka.
the music is really slow actually. but still, it's an awesome song. (:

so, here are the lyrics to the music video in my sidebar (:

One of these days you'll be
under the covers you'll be
under the table and you'll realize
all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for more.

Take every moment; you know that you own them.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

Give me a reason
to fight the feeling
that there's nothing here for me.
Cause none of its easy,
I know it wasn't meant to be.
I know its all up to me.
So what am I gonna do with my time?

Ill take every moment, I know that I own them.
Its all up to you to do whatever you choose.

Live like you're dying and never stop trying.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

All of the moments you didn't notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
All of the feelings you couldn't feel
no matter how you try.

broken strings.

2009-09-03T11:53:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

its been HELL long since I've ever blogged.
KAN Kan? (: hehe. so hyper now.

I'm back from school before everyone else does.
Isn't that great? It feels awesome-bombosome. ahahah.
I don't really know what to blog about. But i think i should blog about my trials.
stupid A4 sized papers which spoiled my sleep and appetite.
I have not been sleeping well for the past few nights. YES, my fault. I KNOW.
burning midnight oil is soooooo not FUN. ):
though, at least stuffs goes into this little brain of mine.

oh yes. trials.
let me elaborate more about it.
it's suckish. it's wasting my time. it's annoying. it's irritating. it's ... everything that's not good. hahaha

sejarah paper was a bummer.
the essay part all gone. serious goner wei.
i think i've answered like 2 questions only?
and the structured part was useless.
nehhh, dont wanna talk about sejarah anymore. enough of it.

i had my add maths paper today.
its better than sejarah, i suppose?
at least i could answer more than the questions i answered in history.
so lame. tee heee. i know..

others were fine. boleh buat punya tahap laa.
but not sure if can guarantee an 'A' ):
pray for me? (: and i'll thank youu! just let me know if you do. ahahha

i think its enough for todayy. (:

*one thing i've noticed about my blog, is that its pictureless. wonder why...
It's so plain. think i have to change my template again. ):

picture of the dayyy :

the fact that we're all different, makes us the same.

gravity rides everything.

2009-08-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

she's gone.

(repeat) SHE'S GONE ):

no more Milo ice. no more ice water. no more clean, tidy room.
time to be independent.
why now?

sigh.
bye bye, maid. <3

crap number two.

2009-08-26T18:11:00.003+08:00

Why isn't anyone telling me stuffs i MUST/SHOULD know?

Am pissed off that i missed two tutions in a row. thanks alot.

crap number one.

2009-08-25T22:22:00.006+08:00

its tough.
just when exams are around the corner.
coping with all these crap, nearly made me insane.
i seriously don't know what else to do.
been emo for the past few days.
cried myself to sleep, that's just a part of it.

no idea why. just felt like i should.
when having tons of stuffs on my shoulder, and nobody's there for me,
all i can do is cry just for the sake of letting it out. i guess it will make me feel much better.
rather than going through a hassle,
by complaining to someone who doesn't even appreciate you and no shit is given.
that's just wasting your time.

i can't even concentrate on what i've been studying just now.
the calculation were all wrong, i see numbers that doesn't even exist.
i hate Maths, for now.
need a timeout, seriously.
all the stuffs in my mind now, is crap. all is.

just utter plain crap.

Breathe.

2009-08-21T13:59:00.000+08:00

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh

I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry.

screwed.

2009-08-17T14:37:00.000+08:00

bm paper was horrible.
enough said.

dead and gone.

2009-08-14T19:52:00.002+08:00

yeah.

2 more days till trials.
wish me luck!

(:

baaaaammmm!

2009-08-11T19:01:00.003+08:00

so.

trial next week. mati.
i think i'm going to bring a pillow for my big bumbum. hahah (:
hey, i have to sit still for more than 2 hours for certain subjects.
heheh :p

athirah's birthdaaaaay today.
Happy Birthday, bitch! :D
we bought her a Secret Recipe cake.
the taste of the "new york" cheese cake still runs in my mouth! (:
have fun gulping it up with your family, yo.

mr. balvir tomorrow.
another day of torture. literally.
studying add maths, is so not fun. not fun at all. ):

others.
do you know how it feels, when the person you thought was innocent and all, but actually you're wrong? you know when you actually thought that this person is not even close to the word, 'mean'? but then, out of nowhere this person lets you down, by talking about you behind your back to the rest of the world. how would you feel?

well, it crushed me.

eishhh.

2009-08-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

*getting my butt of the computer*

i hate it.

2009-08-04T23:04:00.004+08:00

title doesn't matter.

its the content that does. (:
so, feel free to name ur title. ahahh i don't even know what im talking
watever. this is my blog. :p

annyyywaaayyy, i cut my hair two days ago.
and it looks like nothing changed. hahah
except that the person cutting my hair, took the straightening iron and straightened my hair. so the syok sendiri right? :D but thank you! haha

the guy behind me was amazingly hot. leave me alone (:

eh eh. trials. i can't wait.
im so gonna flunk my add maths paper. till now, im still not thaaaaat good at my logarithms and functions. though it's easy to understand. sigh. and it's already AUGUST for crying out loud.

stab me, please.
let me know this is not happening.

i'll be waiting for you at the other side of the rainbow.

who say?

2009-08-03T20:12:00.004+08:00

...
shit happens.

now,
who said words CAN express how you feel?

it can't.

...

my estate.

2009-07-31T13:54:00.002+08:00

They are the ones who walks in when others walk out.

my second.

2009-07-30T14:46:00.006+08:00

today = tahi kucing.
btw,

Ashley Chew, passed her Additional Mathematics for the second time in this 2 years.

I so wanna pahat this at some batu nisan or something. -.-
it is important to me. too important.
terlalu happy, sorry. (:

sometimes it takes your own ability to reach a goal.
and a little bit of luck alongside.

"The roots of true achievement lie in the will to become the best that you can become."
-Harold Taylor.

to those who can't make up their mind.

2009-07-29T14:34:00.005+08:00

...WTF.

august = SPM trial.

go to hell you ppd people!
don't shoot yourself. let me shoot you instead.

and in all means,
less touching the keyboard and the mouse.
which leads to, less blogging. less facebooking.
and day by day it gets lesser and lesser.

add maths sure die.
accounts sure koyak.
ekonomi sure cukup-cukup makan only.
the signs of me burning midnight oil. every day. from now.
must. i MUST.

haiyaaah they all sumpah cari pasal weyy ):

anyway, coffee would be my cup of love from now. the only thing that can make me stay awake. the only thing that can accompany me throughout the loneliness in the night. eventhough it taste bitter. i should try it for a few days and see how it goes. that would be option no.1.

there's also option no. 2. *jeng3* essence of chicken too! ehh it helps okay. to me lah. not only it makes me more alert, but it makes me more energetic. not hyper. cikgu khalid said not to drink coffee banyak-banyak. because it can cause moodswings due to too much caffeine. according to "mr. know-it-all" lah. :p well better be safe than sorry. should go for plan B if plan A doesn't work. heheh

i know this is rubbish. hahah (:

ashley's.

farmville fever.

2009-07-28T18:33:00.006+08:00

oh yes. hello. (:

i've not been feeling well for like the past 3 days. but i still insist of going to school though. you know why. (: so, i had a really long sleep yesterday. a really really long one. at least like 4 hours? till 9 in the night. hahah. sumpah on my dead body, you will feel like you just got up from the dead. its rather satisfying. But i had backaches lah. So, i was still a little tired. not to say i was emo or not la kan, but i didn't take the medication that my mum gave me. i just wanted to be sick, thats all. the feeling of having the severe backaches, the running nose of mine, the blardy sorethroat that makes your voice sound husky. that is LOVE is to me. you might think im crazy, but im not. the sake of having attention. from him.

bla bla, the world still spins. lets go on. heheh ((:

today in school was so to the tahap maximum boringgg ): what can you do without kenneth and dineish? hahah, we need you! cheh cheh. oh kenneth, get well soon! (: just for cik kiah, she's coming back next week. hahah lol :D she wouldn't wanna see you in pain! XD so yeah, later on we had some ceramah on teknik menjawab soalan for Ekonomi Asas. Well it ended quite fast than we had expected. nasib the lady wasn't the type that blabbers and mumbles to herself. if not i would be dozing off already.

OH btw, go play farmville and be my neighbor. this is crucial.
so that i can expand my farm. hahah.
please go? (:

nahh, amik ko. i gave you the link. so no malas malas.
actually you don't have to keep playing. just add me as your neighbor. isn't that easy? :p
http://apps.facebook.com/onthefarm/index.php?ref=flashRedirectHome

thats all for today. will blog when i've got something to say. im kinda busy nowadays.
despite that SPM trials falls on September. early September that is.
i am so dead man, DEAD. ):

ashley's.

this beat is sick.

2009-07-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

im tired,
im bored,
im sick.

sigh.
exams are over, literally.
it is such a hassle.
):

so sick of it.
erghh.

leaving it all behind.

2009-07-20T14:34:00.011+08:00

belellooo'sss! (:

heheh. i'm kinda high now.
sorry. (:

oh. i kinda had fun in school today.
except, learning Economics.
i think everyone was tired.
so, most of my classmates slept during her period.
and don't know what she was mumbling infront there la
but somehow, i understood SOME of what she taught us. :p

before that, we were taking pictures for the school-leavers thingy.
*SCREAMS*
hahah, im leaving the school in like 4 months or so?
just taking the pictures for it makes me wonder.
that, i'm about to leave the school soon.
it feels like it just started.
sigh, but i know i'm gonna miss this blardy school. (:

dineish got so fascinated with that rainbow twirly swirly thingy.
i don't know what you call that.
hahah. :D
he looked like some lifeless guy running everywhere,
holding the rainbow thingy, just to make it spin.
so, the retard right? -.-
eventually, i became one later on. heheh.
can't help the fact that it amuses me too. heeeee

the retards.

yeaa, the candy cane.
the theme was what, candy land? hahaha
but the people in charged,
they did a great job lah.
THANK YOU PEOPLE!

btw i don't even know why i'm bending down?
maybe because of HER :D

so now you know.
everyone got tired.
and my knee looks really red now,
cause there was some point i've got to kneel down, to take the picture.
hey, im not short okay.
just not tall. heheh (:

on the way back to class,
saw this really pretty hibiscus.

it is right?

oh.
another thing got me so hyped up.
these cute little thingggssss.
one of my classmates are selling it.

oh my, they are so adorable.
and when things are adorable,
the price is as much the same.

i got the black one. after so many choices. :p

mushroomiee.

lam got the black and green one.

cute right?

i fancy them. (:

i wanted the froggie.
but too lala-fied.

wanted the bear too.
but trying to save money laaa.

each cost like what, RM 2.30?
i can't see these things.
if not, my money is gone.

haih. exam tomorrow.
PJK? haih.
so wonderful.
i got to get my ass to my room,
and STUDY.

tata for now.

ashley's.

2009-07-17T21:29:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

ashleychewmunyi is hungry.
care to feed me some food? :(

share a title.

2009-07-16T22:49:00.006+08:00

hello bellello (: lols.

its been so long since i blogged. eh, 3 days is LONG okayyy. :p mind my weirdo'ness.
anyway, this blog is so empty. so picture-less. :D
so, i'll upload something i did just now.

i was bored, nothing to do. i didn't know studying science could be so boring. :(
so i decided to take my camera, and take a picture of my
got to work on, on my smile. heheh, since tomorrow, my class is taking picture for the school-leavers thingy in the Persada. are you jealous? :p hahaha, don't be.
your time will come, it will.

i know, im weird :S
but seriously, i look bad.
with my bengkak left eye, and i've been extremely tired these days, having to wake up in the middle of the night also, just adds up to how ugly i look in the photo :(

studying science makes me go haywire (:

nahh, i was just lying :p. btw, its contains only water. MUnited! :D

TADAAAA (:

ashley's.

this feeling.

2009-07-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

i feel so bad right now.
oh my.

2009-07-08T14:40:00.002+08:00

facebook is being an ass to me.
:(

cookies and pasta! (:

2009-07-07T22:13:00.003+08:00

hey.

the weather today was gloomy to me, even though the sun was shinning bright hot on my hair.
dah la my hair kering-kontang. haihh. (does that even make sense? oh wt the heck.) so, today yes, was a very special day indeed. lemme tell you in detail.

things were going okay in the morning, as usual. my cookies and pasta were very laku for these two days. even kenneth wanted to invest in my pasta. so yeh. lam is desperate for my mum's recipe. couldn't blame her though, she's my future chef working in my hotel okeh? :p

later on, we had a spot check. (is that how u spell it?)
and this is the first time i experienced it for the upcoming 5 years in secondary school.
so the shocking right?
well, not many stuffs were taken la. maybe a few earphones, mp3? or mp4?
good luck for those who are taking it back. (:

moving on, it was recess. my not-so-favourite time of the day. while others, merrily walk down the stairs impatiently, just to meet their friends. i don't fancy recess. i'm weird, i know. but eventually i did though, just for today.

canteen. is a place where you buy food and eat.
instead, some girl screamed and shouted at the other girl, i supposed.
it was time for entertainment, but ruined by her friend who was pulling her away.
typical high school drama. grow up people. maybe they haven't gone through puberty yet.
or one of them was having period mood swings.

no. thats not it.

soon, another fight was going on. heh, fighting is what they do best.
but it was boys this time round. it happened on different occassions.
byk entertainment today. teachers with rotans pulling the boys to a side, police came later on.
it should be like this. (story: boy punch boy. boy got hurt. boy bleed in pain)
i saw blood on his head though. it was rather amusing. heheh, never seen students fighting till berdarah-darah all.

this isn't the first time though. melawati school is famous for their discipline problems.
no doubt that the school will suffer, through people's mouth. (if you know what i mean)
but i'm lucky that this will be the last year for me.
some crap school.

ah, shit. it makes me one too.
oh well, melawati is a buhbye for me in a few months more.

goodnight.

ashley's.

ERGHHHHHHHH

2009-07-04T23:36:00.003+08:00

I SO WANNA DRAG YOU TO HELL RIGHT NOW.
YOU BLARDY COW.
YOU DON'T HAVE BALLS.
YOU JUST EAT GRASS.
YOU GOT NO LIFE.
YOU ARE ONE USELESS COW!

ERGHHHHHHHH.
you're such a bitch you know that.
you can see sexy girl's panties in porn movies.

please go get a life?
or just dont blardy get married.

awesome possum. (:

2009-07-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

hey dudelicious, and babelicious.

i should have dumped add maths long long and, i mean LONG time ago.
just realized that my mom actually approved it. == so bummed out!

zaman ais, was FUN. (:
if it's not because i was about to pee, i would have laughed my ass off.
but i was holding my laughs. stupid. so ridiculous.
i had too, if not ... you don't even want to know. :D

was at TANGS. love the mugs. so cute!

sigh of stress.

ashley's.

permutations.

2009-07-01T21:45:00.005+08:00

hello people.
i'm so upset.
so many things to tell.
omg.

anyway, meet Kenneth Baradhan. (:

He's turning seventeen on 1st July.
which is today. (:

I know its mean to post that picture up of him sleeping.
well, i do what i can do for you.
athirah couldn't wait for this post, kan?
so, Happy Birthday, Kenneth! <3

ah. yes. Program Latihan Khidmat Negara.
i still remembered the first person i saw in school today,
first word i said.
i saw athirah. she asked me, "you kena for NS ah?"
then i was like, "SHIT."
there you go, my very first word for the day.
obviously i have no idea about this NS crap thingy till like today.
so outdated man. :( anyway, some told me a few of them got it.
that includes, LAM YEE LENG.
and a few didn't.

the best part about this is,
when you send the msg to check for your name.
and they reply you by saying, "TAHNIAH!"
and your full name will appear too. hahaha, so awesome.
okokay, so i asked dineish to check for me.
and i waited like blardy hell long for that 20 sens msg. idiot buggers.
so, i couldn't like hold it any longer.
took lam's phone. sent it. got it in like half an hour, or so?
i SCREAMED. hahaha, i didn't get though.
well, there a lot of people saying,
this is like for the whole year 2010.
and then some were like, this is batch by batch.
and also, this is just the first two hundred, there's more to come.
BULL.
end of this shit.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------

so yeh. i skipped parents teachers day meeting.
hahah, too good to be true. :D
it's so unbelievable that my mom actually didn't wanna go.
but there's another one more coming, like after the trials, i think?
arghhhh. spm sucks. less than 30 more weeks. :(

OHHHH.
i watched transformers already.
no comments (:
next, ICE AGE 3.
ehehhhe, kiasu. yes i am!

ashley's.

taggiesss. (:

2009-06-29T14:27:00.002+08:00

school was bearable today.
nothing much happened.

babi punya computer got virus.
sorry, if i sent bullshits to your email in msn.
its not me. (:

i'm TAGGED. so, you are too! whoever who's reading my blog that is.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!=) At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u! =)

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your wedding plan, tag d people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. How old are you?
belum lagi 17.

2. Are you single?
hehe. (:

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
late 20's?

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
probably.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
someone like him. just a little better. :p

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
not so sure about that yet.

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
beach, maybe. garden would be nice, too. (:

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
rome, paris? romantic countries. hahah im greedy.

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
havnt figured that out yet.

10. Will that include your exes?
if i'm still keeping in touch with them.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
3.

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
afternoon, can? :p

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
show me love, by robyn. r&b. and michael buble's - quando, quando, quando.

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
fine dining would be a little too much. lets make it a simple wedding.

15. champagne or red wine?
depends.

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
maybe a day after. (:

17. Money or household items?
money.

18. How many kids would you like to have?
2. make it fair.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
definitely.

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next.
lam's. hahaha.

21.Name your kids.
if it's a boy, i would like to name him, Darren. (: hehe.

yeay me.

2009-06-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

who's your mother now?
I AM.
heheh, ;p
i'm watching transformers 2 tomorrow!
well, maybe you would be like,

"I GOT ASK AR?"
or maybe,
"SO? WHO CARES?"

well, anyway.
yeaaayyyyy man. haaha
so kiasu weyyy.
incase you don't know what it means.
i THINK it means, like ..
erm, well i'm not so sure either. ahahah :D

too happy to explain.
will try to, when i can. (:
or, maybe not.

anyway, got to go.
na-nightsss. <3

ashley's.

walk the moon.

2009-06-26T14:43:00.006+08:00

"It still has not hit me. It feels so strange. Michael Jackson is dead. He was only 50 years old, a milestone age. He just celebrated the 25^th anniversary of "Thriller," the best-selling album of all time, and re-released it in February."

Although, i'm not his no.1 biggest fan in the world/i don't fancy him or watsoever, somehow it made an impact to me. whether it's strong or weak, it just left a spot there.

as i heard the radio announcing his death, i was not only shocked. i can't even use the word, "OMG". it totally shut my heart. though i don't really listen to his song or watch his video clips very often, but i know he's very talented. his dance moves, its incredible. that made him an icon. a true king of pop. yes, his looks are not normal, and had been charged for sexual abuse and stuffs like that, but just don't look at that side anymore.

he's gone now. and just when you thought you could appreciate him now. well, to me, i would say, go get a life. you don't appreciate someone, after his or her death. you just can't. some tend to take advantages of that person. it makes no sense to me.

here, they can talk bad about Michael Jackson while he is still alive.
and there, they love him when he is gone.
dude, make up your mind. go bang urself on the wall, if you can't.

he's not just a man. he's not normal. he's special. he is further than the word, legend.
the world had just lost a very special man.
words can't express how much he is.

this post, is for remembering him.
it will not only stay here in this blog, but in many people's heart.
including, mine.
and i hope he's in a better place now.
i hope he's up there with Elvis creating a new song. or a dance move or something that is more than just a world record. i'm not joking.

tearing, wouldn't be enough. lets go through this together. (:

ashley's.

moments like this.

2009-06-24T12:46:00.009+08:00

heyyaa's.

life's good, not going to school. just left lying on the bed with my bantal busuk and my blankie. oh, it's like heaven, i tell you. i get to redeem myself, at least 3 hours of sleep for yesterday's "stay up late" till 1 something. and it paid off actually.

somehow, i just couldn't copy and paste that into my exam today. I stumbled, said "oops, sorry", and screwed the pieces. i know i can do it at home, but why couldn't i when i was in the room? the temperature was low, so cold and it made my fingers numb. i could play, but it wasn't perfect at all, and it wasn't normal at the same time. i pressed the wrong key, i did everything i could to reach the level. when i was about to leave the room, i was about to shed a tear. just a tear. i knew i screwed up big time. and i definitely know what's coming next. the results. the feeling of my heart pumping so fast just made me thought that i would for sure, not pass my exam. but i looked on the bright side though, another side of a box. which i whispered to myself, "hey, i did my best. i know i did well. so, there's no point regretting and getting all shitty about it. what's done is done."

as soon as i said that to myself, i gained something. experience. through that moment, in the room, i was nervous. hands-shaking, hands were sweaty as usual. i told myself, i went through this for those blardy 6 years, and i'm still freaking out? what the hell, is wrong with me?! i should be toughen up, and not be afraid of what's coming next. instead, i didn't stick to that. i go through the normal way. which i kinda, regret and seeing the piano, it makes me want to cry, and it makes me sick. erghh, i wish i didn't even take this up in the first place. i wish i could just turn back the time, and practice my pieces like there's no tomorrow. as i was about to step away from the room, i was so tempted to just go back to the room, and play my pieces one more time. because i know i was good.

after all that screwss, i finally know. i am useless. i don't find any talent in myself. what do i wanna do after my SPM, i don't even fucking know. i am one blardy lazy shit. useless, to be exact. i don't find any craving. nothing at all. NONE. this feeling is crappy. yet, i have to go through it. i don't even know why am i born. i can do nothing for this world. nothing. i'm empty. i'm stressed out. and i thought after today, i should be sighing out loud already. a good sigh. the breath of freedom. but, looks like it, it wouldn't be. i know it's going to stick onto my brain, and make me worry about it every single day. i don't even wanna go close to SPM, as this planet keeps spinning. i so want to shoot myself now. i want to drink a bottle of Smirnoff. (it tastes good okayy :p) i just can't forget the fact that, i'm so, useless. enough said.

ashley's.

Kantoi.

2009-06-23T14:55:00.002+08:00

Semalam I call you, you tak answer,
You kata you keluar pergi dinner,
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you,
But when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true.

So, I drove my car pergi Damansara,
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola,
Tapi bila i sampai you, you tak ada,
Lagilah i jadi gila.

So I called and called sampai you answer,
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar,
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym,
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you,
I've always known your words were never true,
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu,
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.

So I guess that's the end of our story,
Akhir kata she accepted his apology,
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too,
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.

ashley's.

sleep.

2009-06-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

.pinky ponky.
woooshhhh~ i'm so tired.
though, i never did much today.
hahah, so the tired. :(

anyway, wont be coming fr school on wednesday.
yeaayyyy. x) some piano exam.
this is the second time, i skipped school okayh.
budak baik, you knoww. (:

i've gt nothing much to blabberrrr about.
its getting late anyways.
i love to sleep, who doesn't kan?
haha, if can right, i don't mind sleeping forever.
but can wake up la. lols

toodles. <3

pow boom boom.

2009-06-20T20:56:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday, Hariz Roslan. (:

oh hello. hello. hello. hello. hello. hello.
finally, i sent my old phones for repair. YES.
ahhaha, big achievement okayyyh. :D
i'm very the lazy wan.
so, considered i'm better now. hehehe.

oh god. i've to remind myself that i've got only 15 more weeks till spm.
how short is that?
omgggggggg, shit.
there's so many things i wanna do now,
i don't wanna study.
add maths how? :(
i should start studying now, before it's too late.
but, xdr semangat. howwww?
is there like a 24-hour tutor or something?
i desperately need one.
to push me to study more, and guide me.
i can't do this myself. i'm not independent enough.
help?

ashley's.

crazier. <3

2009-06-17T14:37:00.015+08:00

just thought that i should post something up.
no idea, what to write about.
but recently, i heard this song, crazier by Taylor Swift. it was beautiful. some soundtrack from hannah montana the movie.
it almost made me cry. :( ahah reminiscing the good times i had with you.
it was short, yet meaningful.
and by listening to this song, it showed me how much you mean to me.

i just couldn't take my ears off this song. <33>

"you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around,
you showed me something that i couldn't see,
you open my eyes and you make me believe,
it feels like i'm falling and i'm lost in your eyes,
baby, you showed me what living is for."
i love you. (:

ashley's.

results.

2009-06-15T14:43:00.005+08:00

yes. results. i think i have half of it, just for today.
very shitty.
definitely, not talking about it.
whats tomorrow gonna be like? i wonder.
telling my parents my results is a phobia to me.
whether i did my best or not, it might not satisfy them.
and, whether i did good or bad, telling parents my results is the hardest thing ever, a sixteen year old could ask. *coughs*For me laa. haha.*coughs*

my add maths, is a definite infinity .. goner. (:
i would like to see that. haha. that's the only subject that i don't mind failing. lolss. :p
am used to failing it, no point getting sad. because, i KNOW i will fail. :DD

sigh sigh sigh.
i've got lots of it coming.

ashley's.

somethings telling me that,
i shouldn't give up on you.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

because i'm just too lazy.

2009-06-14T22:15:00.005+08:00

Happy going-back-to-school, people! (:

just so you know,
i'm starting it all over again.
so the wonderful right?
toodles <3
na'night, sweets.

ashley's.

morning lullabies.

2009-06-13T11:48:00.011+08:00

it's Saturday.

and it's only 10 am in the morning.
i feel like i need more sleep.
i'm so going to suffer when school reopens.
thnks a lot. (:

have you ever thought about waking up in the morning,
with your loved one beside you with his or her head on your arm?
and your hand was numb and all the circulation was gone?
but you dared not move your pretty sleeping one?

You keep appearing in my dream
and I can't stop thinking of you.
as this lullaby melodies.

when I push the curtains away,
and the sun had painted patterns on your face.
as you rolled onto my open arm
and I became a pillow to you.
but I know that it's just a dream.

while you were struggling to sleep,
and I had to put you to sleep by,
singing a morning lullaby?
and still, I know this is never going to last.

I will hear you tumble to sleep,
and I know you have to close your eyes on everyone.
I helped you to sleep,
by singing a morning lullaby and so you did closed.
you're beautiful and peaceful this way.

you never want to wake up as this dream keeps you sleeping,
and as this morning lullaby keeps singing in your head.

ashley's.

merdeka.

2009-06-10T23:08:00.009+08:00

heys and bays and lays and fays and tays and aays. hahaha. :p
mind me, I'm a little bored here. (:

well, holidays are almost over. literally. just like a few days more. and yea, probably I'll be back to square one again when I'm in class.
"Book, I no touch you for this two weeks. And so, therefore, I'll be dumb when I'm back in the classroom and looking at the teacher like one blurr cow."
teeheee. Yeah, most probably, very the much likely I'll be like that. I should remind myself that I've got another 2 months more till SPM trial arrives. Wish me lots of luckiess, if you're kind enough. (:

I still have the thoughts of those few days right before PMR starts, loads of messages keep buzzing me. One of them was like, send this message to everyone who is taking PMR and you'll get straight A's! Bullshit, I TELL YOU. hahaha, i know I'm dumb to even send that message to my friends. Well, it doesn't hurt for not trying. You might not know it helps. (: Anyway, those sitting for PMR this year, shouldn't worry much. haha, if that helps though. :p

I guess I better head to sleep now. It's getting late. I miss last year's holidays where I get to stay up late like nobody's business, but now .. I don't think that's possible anymore :( shall wait after SPM is OVERRRRRRR. and so, Merdeka, I will be. (:

Na'nights everyone!

ashley's.

the hugs are a must before bedtime,
and yes, along side with a goodnight kiss. (:
-ashleylovesbunnie.

whats been going on lately?

2009-06-05T12:32:00.007+08:00

hey sexayss.

Wanna know whats driving me crazy now? stupid homework of Maimon's. hahha. shes not stupid laa, just the homework. (: she has high expectations on us to finish her essay in a week. but I rarely do her homeworks. just thought i might finish it, since its holidays. well I tell you what, holidays are making me even lazier, cause i get to roam around my house and watch tv since i've got no naggers around to tell me what to do :p and its also making me even fatter, since it was my daddy's bfday yesterday, my mum bought like a big round choc cheese cake for my dad from Secret Recipe and at the same time, we ate at Roadhouse Grill which I think I gulped down a plate of french fries and shank of lamb. I should be exercising, jogging, or going to the gym to burn my fatties this holidays but its nt working out i guess. ):

oh yea, I just noticed kan, i dont post pictures on my bloggie. hahah. since my phone was down and i'm currently using a down graded phone I didnt get to take pretty pictures ): such a waste. sigh. Anyway went to pavilion last week, bought a pretty beach dress from Forever 21. Gawd, that place is like heaven you know. they sell boots too. (: I so wanted to try on them you know. my legs were gatal and my mum was like persuading me some more. but I didnt. so malu okayyy. heheh. (:

whats been bothering me lately, is the weather. SO HOT, i tell you. I wanna dive in a pool of cold water and create a big wave. hahah since im fat kan. nahh, i just wanna soak myself. (:

ashley's.

can i call you mr. teddy?
since you're so huggable.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

erghhh.

2009-06-03T23:23:00.006+08:00

hello. (:

holidays just started and i'm totally speechless about it. don't wanna mention what I did for the past few days as I was just loafing around spiritless. let me tell you something, I'm bored. holidays are boring. they drive me nuts. I want a plate of streaky bacons with baked beans infront of my face now, i want to be in a place where there's snow everywhere, i want to be loaded so that I could own an iPhone and much more. I want to be someone that I'm not right now. is that bad? i guess so.

i'm tired with everything. how things are going on. i would wish to just end my studies now. sounds so hopeless, right? why force me to do something that i don't put a hundred and ten percent on? why force me when you know I'm going to fail and do bad? urghhh. i know i'm useless.

ashley's.

although you're nt here with me now,
i know your heart is. (:
-ashleylovesbunnie.

i can regret, can i?

2009-06-03T13:55:00.002+08:00

I deleted the last post.
Felt dumb for posting it. haha.
and felt lame for writting such thingss.
well, God knows how i felt that time.
hahaa, will blog laterrrrsss. (:

The Cubes.

2009-05-28T20:18:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I admire this people. (:
they can just solve it in seconds, not even minutes.
I tabik them, weyy.

the rubik's clock, looks easy :p

i like the pyramid one. so cute. (:

Our Seven-Hundred and Thirty Days.

2009-05-27T14:46:00.011+08:00

hello.
27th of May 2007.
The date, where I fell for you.
The beginning of you and me.
Where it didn't mean anything at all at first,
and yet, it became something at last.

you're my heartbeat <3
you're my pulse,
and you're my everything that makes me alive.
i ain't letting you go,
i'll be holding your hands till the world stops spinning,
i'll be here with you till it's the end of everything.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

ashley's.

A Broken Promise.

2009-05-23T23:14:00.003+08:00

Helloo thereeee (:

Hahahaha. So much of the "My blog will be inactive till the exams are over". Never did happened. hahahahaa. Okayy, I'm kinda high on add maths right now. Give me more. I'm not afraid of you. (:

Oh yess, exam. It was shitty. I'm serious. With the monkey sitting beside me, and the donkey behind me, you couldn't ask for more. hahaha. I'm so meann, the names are not gonna be written anyway. I don't think both of them would even read my blog also :p

A lot of things had been going on lately. Rumors. Relationship. Boys. Girls. Blahhh bahhh. All that crap, that I had to go through now. Currently, I'm annoyed by her. Your selfish act is just too much, you think you're right all the time, but you're not. Self absorbed much. And you don't wanna be controlled? Then fine. Have it your own stinking way, and ruin your SPM. Because I know I'm gonna study like crap, and not see a G in my SPM slip. No way that's gonna happen. I'm sorry for being rude, and mean but it's the fact. I WAS your friend, but you never did appreciate my advice nor your other friend's. So much of the "i love youuu'ss" you wrote to me. ):

Ah, rumors. My favorite part. (:
I hate you. and You hate me. Simple as that. Well, I don't stick to that principal lah. I'm more to the tidak apa type. Just letting you all out there, know. ahahha, i told you i'm high on add maths right. A subject that makes my brain dead :p About the girls and boys part. Nothing about it, really. Just adding it up to make it look as if there's a lot going on. hahahah. But seriously, there is lah. Just not so important oness.

Here comes the important part. :D
4 more days to 2 years, babeyhhh. I rock in LOVE (: hehe. I'm gonna blog on that particular day. It means so much to me, that I have to tell everyone about it. Sorry for the nags and blabbers.

Miss Fabulous tagged me in Facebook. Thnks, love (:
Yeah didn't wanna post it in Facebook. I wanna make use of my blog okayy. (:

Be honest no matter what.
If I tag you, you have to do one!

1.) have you ever been asked out?
by a guy, of course (:

2.) where was your default picture taken?
in here, the computer room. it's the only place where my face looks good at. hahahah

3.) what's your middle name?
if you would have combine my name into a middle one, it would be ChewMun. lolss

4.) your current relationship status?
i've got a lot of boyfriends laahh. :ppp

5.) does your crush like you back?
i dont care, because i don't have one.

6.) what is your current mood?
tinggi. sungguh tinggi.

7.) what color of underwear are you wearing?
white kot. hahah.

8.) what color shirt are you wearing?
white tooooo. i'm a whitey today. clean okaayyyy.

9.) Missing something?
everything that i've missed out in life :(

10.) if you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
my body shape. get some exercising. haha, im too fat x(

11.) if you must be an animal for one day, what?
errrmm, a cat perhaps? i can just sleep and eat the whole day and not freaking care about my weight because people just love fat cats. dont you think so? ahaha

12.) ever had a near death experience?
can't remember.

13.) something you do a lot?
messaging. blogging. writting. eating XD

14.) the song stuck in your head?
selamat pergi pahlawanku, the choir song (:

15.) who did you copy and paste this from?
miss fabulous.

16.) name someone with the same birthday as you?
Julianne Moore. got it from the internet, haha.

17.) when was the last time you cried?
a few weeks or months ago.

18.) have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
for choir (:

19.) if you could have one super power what would it be?
able to get good grades.

20.) what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
his smile. i just love it. it makes me smile too (:

21.) what do you usually order from starbucks?
caramel frappucino.

22.) what's your biggest secret?
it's a secret lah dong. it wouldn't be a secret anymore, if i told you right?

23.) favorite color?
sky blue. just that. im not sick of looking at the sky everyday.

24.) do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
yeaa, i have a little sis. big influence.

25.) what's on your walls?
a flower lamp.

26.) what are you?
am a girl with lots of worries. ):

27.) do you speak any other language?
cantonese and melayu.

28.) what's your favorite smell?
my perfume. (:

29.) Describe your life in one word.
speechless.

30.) have you ever kissed in the rain?
i don't think its gonna happen to me. haha i dont like getting wet with my clothes on. xp

31.) what are you thinking about right now?
that stinking add maths paper. drives me up the wall then to the roof :(

33.) what should you be doing?
studying laaa.

34.) who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
my sister.

35.) how often do u talk to God?
God knows when i do (:

36.) do you like working in the yard?
why so random? err no.

37.) if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
to change my Mun to something else. any other name, that everyone could pronounce it right.

38.) do you act differently around the person you like?
yeah, really happy (:

39.) what is your natural hair color?
black and a few strands of brown.

40.) who was the last person to make you cry?
forgot (:

aiyahhh, i've got to go back to studying. add maths book waiting fr my return. and the pillow too ): anyways, i'll blog in 4 days time. make sure u read and cry (: haha.

Na Nights, dirty fellowss (:

ashley's.

the presence of you,
is more than enough.
and more than i could ever ask for.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

It's Your Mother Season.

2009-05-14T15:12:00.007+08:00

heylo (:

HAHA.
Mind the title, please.
and no offense, heheh.
Everyone's addicted to the word "your mother". (:

Anyway,
This shall be my last post before,
the Semester One arrives next week.
My blog would be inactive till the exams are over.
Ashley Chew would like to wish everyone Good Luck.
May God bless youuu (:

ashley's.

It's impossible to breathe without you.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Agent Kosong.

2009-05-10T14:09:00.003+08:00

hey, hey.

Watched Wolverine.
Nice show, Hot guys :p
I love you, Agent Zero (:

This is gonna be a short post.
because I'm just dropping by to say,
Happy Mother's Day,
to all the wonderful mother's out there (:

"God could not be everywhere .. That's why He created mothers."

ashley's.

I love you.
-ashleylovesmummie.

You.

2009-05-08T13:47:00.003+08:00

Hello. (:

First thing I wanna blabber about is, I have not touch my books yet, and Semester One is around the corner. I really think I'm smart now :p

Second thing is, I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. I will make it up to you later.

Third thing is, I've got Add Maths project coming up. It's so sucky. So many folio's and stuffs to get rid off. But I really find Add Maths project, ridiculous. So useless.

Fourth thing is, the school can't make up their mind. I think this is the 4th time, they changed the stupid timetable. Lifeless people, mah. (:

Anyway, I wasn't "feeling very well" today. Sigh. Honestly, I don't even know what went wrong with me. No, I'm not pms-ing. Not emo-ing. I'm just very silent today and tired of how things are going on.

See you, bloggie.

ashley's.

You make it all better when I'm sad,
You held my hand and said "it's okay".
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Hope.

2009-05-03T22:11:00.004+08:00

Yes.
Hope.
That's what I need right now.

Everyone's a let down.
Nobody listens to what you've got to say.
Nobody cares about what you're gonna do.
Nobody believes that you didn't do it on purpose.
Nobody wants to know about you.
How would you feel?

I sacrifice so much.
For you.
Just for you.
And what do I get back in return?
Your "don't give a damn" attitude.
It's hard to just care about you,
I sacrifice, my time.
I sit there, all alone in the canteen.
For what?
Just to wait for you, dumbass.
Why do you wanna wait for me?
Because I wanna spend time with you.
We can do that later, when we go out or something.
We barely go out. What's your excuse for now?
Hmm. Nothing.

Love?
Equals to disappointments.
They bring you down.
They let you down.
They just do.

ashley's.

Get well soon,
I'll always be here.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Pig Flu?

2009-05-03T12:52:00.008+08:00

I'm happy. I can smile with my mouth open, and with my teeth shown (:

My parents are finally back from Macau <3'esss.
I miss them like crazy. After 5 days of being quarantined at home, I'm finally free.
Can't go out. Nowhere to go. Blardy torture. Blardy boring.
I can't live without my parents.

So, yea. They got back yesterday night.
First thing, my sister asked "Mummie, where's my present?"
Haaah, that cunning sister of mine.
Well, I got a lot of pretty stuffs, I can say :p
But, I wouldn't use it for now. Save the best for the last, kan? :)
Oh. I got a ProSportSac instead of LeSportSac. Difference?
LeSportSac is original. But boo hoo, I got a limited edition baggg :p
Who cares, when I love it? :)

And by the way..

Flu doesn't come from piggies. Don't blame them, you numb sculls (:
They are cute and yummy :D
But, if I get that whatever shitty flu, I'll blame my parents.

Oh and,
"Don't cough or sneeze. People will stare at you."

ashley's.

Baby, you mean the world to me,
I need not say more.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

One word.

2009-04-30T16:13:00.003+08:00

Hello (:

Semester ONE is next next Friday. I'm not ready.
No, I'm not.
So far, I've only studied "some" subject.
SPM in 204 more days.
Sijil Paling Mudah? Not really.
More like Sijil Paling Menyusahkan :p

Sorry for the short post.
Nothing much to boast about.
Will be back soon, hopefully ;)

ashley's.

1, 2, 3, 4,
I Love You.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

You're My Everything.

2009-04-26T14:15:00.004+08:00

You want excellence,
But do not work,
You talk a lot,
But do nothing to help,
You feel empathy,
But do not understand,
Who are you in the team?

Cool right?
It's written somewhere in school (:

ashley's.

The way you look at me,
The way you speak to me,
The way you hold my hand,

Nobody could ever replace you in any-land (:

-ashleylovesbunnie.

God knows why.

2009-04-25T15:01:00.002+08:00

There's so many things I wanna do now. and why must it be this year, when fun just started? I'm missing out a lot things and I do not wanna be the last one to know :(

How I wish I was Form 4 again. It wasn't so honeymoon-ish. But, it was okay. Just when I'm in Form 5, I'm living like a Form 4. I'm taking it so easily and not doing anything about it makes me feel dumb. Right now at the moment, I'm regretting why didn't I do stuffs this year, in Form 4?

Anyway, Form 4's, treasure your sweet sixteen while you still can :)

Oh. St. John's First Aid Exam 2009.
POSTPONED AGAIN. Well, not really postponed la. Just one bahagian only :p
Why can't they just get this over with? Lol.

Minta Maaf, for the rudeness ;)

ashley's.

I was staring up the stars,
I wonder just where you are,
You feel a million miles away.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Friend?

2009-04-23T15:44:00.002+08:00

Erm, Hi (:

I'm not planning to tell what happened in choir, because almost everyone talked about it, posted on their blogs, and so on. So, forget it. I'm not telling :x Anyway, loved the outfit for choir, especially the scarf. Thnks for everything.

Spot and Dot. Nice name, huh? Well, code names are rather annoying for other people who don't know and it's cool for those who knows. I find it interesting for you people to guess. Just play the game with us :)

Oh and yes. I have to really focus on my studies right now since I'm free from activities already. SPM is in another 206 days, i think. Gosh, the numbers are decreasing. Please, stop :(

I was being really horny today. Haha.
Btw, my Slut's birthday is tomorrow :)

ashley's.

In a sea of people,
there was only you.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Choir Comp.

2009-04-21T16:35:00.003+08:00

CHOIR COMPETITION TOMORROW.

WISH ME LUCK (:

blue rocks! ;)

ashley's.

I'm happy that you're with me,
I'm happy I have you,
You complete me.
-ashleylovesbunnie.

Memories and Melodies (:

2009-04-19T19:45:00.007+08:00

Hello guys :)
I'm back from St. John's Leadership Camp, 2 days ago.
There's so many things I would like to share about to the whole world who is reading my blog ;)

The camp was really fun and exhausting. Thank you'ssss for planning it. It worth every cent that I paid for. Anyway, the very first night we were jungle walking. We were making so much noises because everyone was so afraid about what they might see in the jungle. By the way, I really love every single human being, there. I love the part where they care about us, helped us go through hard obstacles and so on. You guys, are awesome :)

Well, during the camp I had my moments. I was going through a hard time getting along with the people, and things weren't going so well at first. But, it became better after that. I know I shouldn't care too much. So, yeah everyone had their moments too. Most of them were either sick, or too tired. And I was really tired, so I didn't wanna play any games on the last day of camp, really tired till I slept on the sofa :p

I don't really wanna blabber much about camp. It was really fun, and I'm hoping next year will be even better eventhough, I'm leaving school this year. Bring St. John's to a next level. I have faith in you guys ;)

The Shirt of Fame (:

She's been there when I was going through a hard time.

CampFire (:

I heart Mr. Hariz (:

Shooooh, fly!

I love this one the most ;)

I'm really gonna miss everyone there :(

One more time,
Thank You for everything.

ashley's.

Can't let the music stop,
Can't let this feeling end,
Cause if I do it'll all be over,
I'll never see you again.

-ashleylovesbunnie.